What kind of love is this
Anniversaries can be odd. I'd been dreading today for a long time. Ten years gone after nine years together. Not sure why but for the fact that now he's been gone longer than we were together. I miss his voice, and his eyes and how they looked at me. I miss his warmth, both of spirit and of body. Mostly I miss his love and understanding. That is why I'm glad that today was such a good day.
Yesterday at dinner with Dad I laid out the options of either companioning (room sharing) with another resident or moving back home and Dad nixed both. He instead offered up refinancing the house to pay off both his past due balances, and my car payment with some extra cushion just in case. In trying to take care of everything and everyone I forget that this is who I learned it from.
He also asked me to pick him up a beginners magic kit so that he could keep busy and engage his brain! I've already contacted a few amateur magician friends for suggestions. How great is that!? I love this man so much! I wanted to kick myself for being upset at having to drive to a different restaurant because he didn't like the menu at the first. I still have much to learn. . .
Today was a good day. I smiled at memories of Doug, drank a bottle of Middle Sister Mischief Maker and baked maple bacon cupcakes while listening to the Tragically Hip. I've had worse days.
Yesterday at dinner with Dad I laid out the options of either companioning (room sharing) with another resident or moving back home and Dad nixed both. He instead offered up refinancing the house to pay off both his past due balances, and my car payment with some extra cushion just in case. In trying to take care of everything and everyone I forget that this is who I learned it from.
He also asked me to pick him up a beginners magic kit so that he could keep busy and engage his brain! I've already contacted a few amateur magician friends for suggestions. How great is that!? I love this man so much! I wanted to kick myself for being upset at having to drive to a different restaurant because he didn't like the menu at the first. I still have much to learn. . .
Today was a good day. I smiled at memories of Doug, drank a bottle of Middle Sister Mischief Maker and baked maple bacon cupcakes while listening to the Tragically Hip. I've had worse days.