beguilement -

[teratism]

...

i wait, i wait, i wait, i wait
my time is like water down a drain
everybody's moving,
everybody's moving,
everybody's moving moving moving moving
please don't leave me to remain...sorry about that

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[photozenic]

when you move so fast, go at such a speed for a while, I'm sure regular life seems slow in comparison... like time is acting funny (when doesn't it though?). not to make you freak or anything, but you've been acting strange since you graduated from UMSL. I don't know if that is what got you down or not, but don't think you don't have a lot going for you, especially right now. you just need to figure out where you want to be, then jump into getting there. I know trevor will do everything he can to help you.

but don't worry, you're not the only one who has those 'ah crap' days.
of all the things I inherited from my folks, that's the one I wish I hadn't.

by the way, I was watching... High Fidelity (with John Cusack)... and saw a NIL8 sticker on the door to his office. saw it, thought of you.

I really did like that album. maybe I'll go hunt it down.

you still planning on coming out this way, or should I just mail you those slides and film?

[teratism]

tell me about it...
...i got past the insanity that was college
and everything seemed too calm, too unreal...

...then again, maybe it was because i was finally sleeping...

gawds, i miss watching NIL8...
...they rocked
i'll have to keep a close eye out during that movie for the sticker...
...and get the cd, it is so wonderful for boring days

we are probably not going to be able to make it out till spring...
...i can't take PTO for my first ninety days, that puts me smack into winter
we are looking at taking a long time in spring to come out, and actually visit instead of speed through...

[photozenic]

insanity like that isn't always the best foundation on which to build a life, which is probably why you're having issues with the calm.

i think the sticker was right when he got the call from the girl to go to the funeral... I don't remember any of their names...

I'll have to look for that one.

I was taking inventory a bit ago, and I think I have your White Zombie cd.

I really want to go do something big during spring break or after school (june-ish), like go to chicago or new york or something. not sure yet what though. was thinking maybe new orleans again.

[ingsoc]

the calm after the storm is sometimes worse than the storm... its time to think...

but then you can stop and look around and see and hear the people that love you that were once obscured in the wind...

[teratism]

thankies...
...i need reminders
that my life doesn't have to be a raging mess of mayhem...
...and that this lull will fade
maybe the weather will be decentish afterall...

[photozenic]

this is a completely different note, but I found a place that will mail-order imo's pizza anywhere in the country. thought you might enjoy a little taste of home. :)

www.stlpizza.com

[c0nc0xionalland]

you're soooo cute!
just like the little infants I work with
not the toddler cute
nor the 3 yr olds, but just the infants

you are just
sooo
cute!!!