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I've been having many random thoughts and fantasies and I've come to realise that I don't think I know myself as well as I thought I did. I'm second guessing myself, losing my confidence. I'm doubting everything I've believed in, stood for. I am scared to confide in people, because confiding means letting down your walls, allowing your vulnerability to seep through. I refuse to be seen as weak, I refuse to allow others the chance to take a shot at me again. But I have absolutely no idea if I'm doing the right thing. It's starting to look more like one hell of a lonely road.
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I don't know if I have the guts to get through this mess.