Lifeless Dark
It isn't often I get this much quiet anymore. All I hear is chirping crickets. Just one cricket actually. Hopefully the dragon will find it soon.
Mmm. I don't know why exactly but I feel worried. Can't sleep. Have that ominous feeling that things are going to fuck up in short order. I hope I'm wrong. Summer will soon give way into Autumn which is never a good season for me. Which is kind of funny because as far as the actual season itself goes it's actually my favorite.
I do have a lot of terrible memories I associate with it though. I hope that list doesn't earn any new additions this year.
Oh well. Nothing can be as bad as last year...
Right?
Man. I feel super overheated suddenly. That happens a lot lately and I don't know why.
Oh yeah. My father might have skin cancer. Which is amazing because the whole time I've known the guy he's always been one to cake himself in insane quantities of sunblock. If I were ever to have been asked who I thought was the least likely person to get skin cancer was I'd have named him. Shows what I know. Shows how effective sunblock is.
Yet another reason to avoid the outdoors. The sunlight kills you.
At the moment I don't believe he actually does have it. I don't know what I'm basing that on though. If it turns out I'm wrong I still don't really think it will phase me; which I think makes me a horrible person.
What a lonely night it is. I couldn't imagine going back to having this every day. It scares me to think how little I have without Tina. So quickly she's become so critical to my mental function. The thought of the seasonal curse of Autumn taking her away from me is enough to make me cringe...
Such insecure words tonight. Time to end them.
Mmm. I don't know why exactly but I feel worried. Can't sleep. Have that ominous feeling that things are going to fuck up in short order. I hope I'm wrong. Summer will soon give way into Autumn which is never a good season for me. Which is kind of funny because as far as the actual season itself goes it's actually my favorite.
I do have a lot of terrible memories I associate with it though. I hope that list doesn't earn any new additions this year.
Oh well. Nothing can be as bad as last year...
Right?
Man. I feel super overheated suddenly. That happens a lot lately and I don't know why.
Oh yeah. My father might have skin cancer. Which is amazing because the whole time I've known the guy he's always been one to cake himself in insane quantities of sunblock. If I were ever to have been asked who I thought was the least likely person to get skin cancer was I'd have named him. Shows what I know. Shows how effective sunblock is.
Yet another reason to avoid the outdoors. The sunlight kills you.
At the moment I don't believe he actually does have it. I don't know what I'm basing that on though. If it turns out I'm wrong I still don't really think it will phase me; which I think makes me a horrible person.
What a lonely night it is. I couldn't imagine going back to having this every day. It scares me to think how little I have without Tina. So quickly she's become so critical to my mental function. The thought of the seasonal curse of Autumn taking her away from me is enough to make me cringe...
Such insecure words tonight. Time to end them.