im so sick of it all.
i want to move away.
i want to be alone.
nothing is wrong but nothing is right.
i kind of wonder if it could ever be...

thats it. thats all. nothing else.
damn.

i feel displaced. i cant hear what im saying. i cant feel what im doing.

My LiveJournal SitcomAs The tentativeaction Turns (TNN, 10:30): tentativeaction (Alan Arkin) likes yearbooks, but porcelainvagina (Elijah Wood) thinks they're disgusting. On the other side of town, jasonvericose (Richard Pryor) auditions for a movie starring opposite silentmovietype (Mikhail Baryshnikov). Upstairs, xshardsofwordsx (Catherine Bell) ( Read more... )

so im a little obsessed with these boxy things. and especially the haiku one. it takes actual words from random entries. i didnt know that at first. so it really freaked me out when i got this!
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i guess i just dont like feeling like im in control. it feels a little false.
tonight i had plans and a goal.
i fucked up my plans. cried in front of people. and didnt accomplish my goal.
but im tucked in. im in love with myself. and im going to die soon. so i dont really care.

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today is the beginning of being alone. i dont know how it happened that i have so many people around me, loving me, and i feel most alone. But its alright. im beginnning to think i am happier this way. . there is nothing i like more than reading or writeing by myself. i cant enjoy those things as much with someone else around ( Read more... )

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