Some things~
some updates :
- mr noel's back with DOUBLE lameness (haha! or maybe he's just trying to be really lame to ensure us that he's totally okay?..)
- i sprained my right foot and i keep spraining it @.@
- i'm getting fatter @.@ @.@
- i start to love some english songs =D
some other things :
i went to ts' baskin robbins today! ^^ oh my god for the first time i had one whole pint for myself @.@ i'm so not touching br or any other ice creams for some time now =.='' anyways while we were eating, we talked about loads of stuffs, yes, including the langkawi trip which i kinda lost interest in already due to many many ridiculous demands by one particular person. did i make the right choice by hosting this trip for them? feels like i just took up some big load of crap now~ anyway, lets diverse.
kervin's going to russia for medical after a levels~ darwin's keen on economics because he has this mindset that economics can bring him more money since young~ heinz is going to uni of nottingham for chemical engineering~ seems like i'm the only lost one here right? ^^" despite them asking me what do i want to do numerous times, i'm still unable to make up my mind. darwin's true, i keep changing my ambition, but merely to suit my financial and at the same time my dreams. while they were talking bout some friends who dream high but do not study, i kinda "terasa" hahah! Xp true, i'd love to become a veterinarian but what the fuck am i doing here? like, fucking blogging??? this is really ironic. of course, they'd be embarrassed to hurt my feelings and so may help me justify things, but truth is, i know it myself, that i can only dream but without action. rotten apple.
during lit class today, alea was preparing for her interview with the people from shell company~ she looked immensely nervous but, good luck girl!!! you can do it ^^ then when ms C asked about uni applications, i saw a few hands shot up. of course, i'm not the only one lost or unable to continue =\
what has happened to youngsters nowadays? as an observer and a listener, i keep seeing and hearing my friends stressing themselves for uni stuffs. some of them must have cried a few times just for this stupid stuff. yes, it may be stupid to me just because i'm not applying or whatsoever. believe me, if i could, i'd have applied long time ago. "you wont understand, you're so carefree, you dont need to do anything!" really babe? do you think thats my dream? complete my a levels, be done with it and go work my ass off? hahaha, nah i dont think i'm offended by these kind of thoughts. afterall, i'm in college. a private college full of rich kids who do not need As to get into uni.
lets see what do i consider before deciding on my future:
- will my parents need to suffer and work few 10 years more to support me?
- will i be able to get the best in what i do?
- will it pay me back fruitfully?
- will it be easier to gain me PR in other countries?
- will it help me to realise my parents' dreams before they pass away?
if you'd just pause what you are doing and start thinking of all these, really, you wont just be stressed out like this =) still want to compare now? =)
like what kervin says, you wont be happy doing what you want if that's not what you intend to do. thats why i couldnt let go off my dream as vet, but at the same time, i cannot neglect people around me who'll need me in the future. hence, i cant decide.
now i do understand why there are so many teenagers out there who choose to waste their teenage life away. but really babes, avoiding reality is not the way. how long can one run away? i sometimes cannot understand how a child can hurt his parents. i'm not a hypocrite. i dont deny that i sometimes unintentionally hurt my parents too. but now i've learnt to keep quiet because when you are angry, you just dont think. like my mum and sis!!! when they're angry, they hurt people to the deepest and after that, they regret. how many more times can you regret? really, love them more because you never know when you will have to stop loving them and forget that you have a childhood. i guess we are already moving to that point. maybe that is why i dont want to make a decision? =\
i think i need to start my homeworks already ^^ i'm still aiming for at least all Bs ahahaha~
ps: i *seriously* just dont care if i'm wearing the same tee every week =) nor will i care if i dont use stila cosmetics or dkny perfumes ^^ please dont compare me with *you*~! ^^"
- mr noel's back with DOUBLE lameness (haha! or maybe he's just trying to be really lame to ensure us that he's totally okay?..)
- i sprained my right foot and i keep spraining it @.@
- i'm getting fatter @.@ @.@
- i start to love some english songs =D
some other things :
i went to ts' baskin robbins today! ^^ oh my god for the first time i had one whole pint for myself @.@ i'm so not touching br or any other ice creams for some time now =.='' anyways while we were eating, we talked about loads of stuffs, yes, including the langkawi trip which i kinda lost interest in already due to many many ridiculous demands by one particular person. did i make the right choice by hosting this trip for them? feels like i just took up some big load of crap now~ anyway, lets diverse.
kervin's going to russia for medical after a levels~ darwin's keen on economics because he has this mindset that economics can bring him more money since young~ heinz is going to uni of nottingham for chemical engineering~ seems like i'm the only lost one here right? ^^" despite them asking me what do i want to do numerous times, i'm still unable to make up my mind. darwin's true, i keep changing my ambition, but merely to suit my financial and at the same time my dreams. while they were talking bout some friends who dream high but do not study, i kinda "terasa" hahah! Xp true, i'd love to become a veterinarian but what the fuck am i doing here? like, fucking blogging??? this is really ironic. of course, they'd be embarrassed to hurt my feelings and so may help me justify things, but truth is, i know it myself, that i can only dream but without action. rotten apple.
during lit class today, alea was preparing for her interview with the people from shell company~ she looked immensely nervous but, good luck girl!!! you can do it ^^ then when ms C asked about uni applications, i saw a few hands shot up. of course, i'm not the only one lost or unable to continue =\
what has happened to youngsters nowadays? as an observer and a listener, i keep seeing and hearing my friends stressing themselves for uni stuffs. some of them must have cried a few times just for this stupid stuff. yes, it may be stupid to me just because i'm not applying or whatsoever. believe me, if i could, i'd have applied long time ago. "you wont understand, you're so carefree, you dont need to do anything!" really babe? do you think thats my dream? complete my a levels, be done with it and go work my ass off? hahaha, nah i dont think i'm offended by these kind of thoughts. afterall, i'm in college. a private college full of rich kids who do not need As to get into uni.
lets see what do i consider before deciding on my future:
- will my parents need to suffer and work few 10 years more to support me?
- will i be able to get the best in what i do?
- will it pay me back fruitfully?
- will it be easier to gain me PR in other countries?
- will it help me to realise my parents' dreams before they pass away?
if you'd just pause what you are doing and start thinking of all these, really, you wont just be stressed out like this =) still want to compare now? =)
like what kervin says, you wont be happy doing what you want if that's not what you intend to do. thats why i couldnt let go off my dream as vet, but at the same time, i cannot neglect people around me who'll need me in the future. hence, i cant decide.
now i do understand why there are so many teenagers out there who choose to waste their teenage life away. but really babes, avoiding reality is not the way. how long can one run away? i sometimes cannot understand how a child can hurt his parents. i'm not a hypocrite. i dont deny that i sometimes unintentionally hurt my parents too. but now i've learnt to keep quiet because when you are angry, you just dont think. like my mum and sis!!! when they're angry, they hurt people to the deepest and after that, they regret. how many more times can you regret? really, love them more because you never know when you will have to stop loving them and forget that you have a childhood. i guess we are already moving to that point. maybe that is why i dont want to make a decision? =\
i think i need to start my homeworks already ^^ i'm still aiming for at least all Bs ahahaha~
ps: i *seriously* just dont care if i'm wearing the same tee every week =) nor will i care if i dont use stila cosmetics or dkny perfumes ^^ please dont compare me with *you*~! ^^"