its wierd
when life is going smooth, I dont write in here. When life is overwhelming and I need to scream or else I might die, thats when I write in here. Its been a month since I've written. I guess things are settling down, or at least I'm not angry anymore. Yeah, there are still a lot of feelings that race through me every day but life I guess seems a little more bearable. I went to NYC last weekend to see Dan sing at Carnegie Hall. It was awesome, I havent been down there in over a year, and once I got back into the city I realized how much I've missed it. Its one of my favorite places in the world to be and I never get to go anymore. I decided then and there that at some point I'm going to live there. Not for long, but I do wanna live there. Summer so far has been really nostalgic for me. Its been a lot of looking back and looking forward. Its a lot different from any summer in the past, and I wish things were different but the fact is that they aren't and I need to live for today.