Won't you say you love me too....
hahah sucker... people love me, and I know it
just kidding of course.... but I sure as hell hope people love me, otherwise, I will be a very sad person
Anyways, this entire weekend has been weird. I really don't know what to make of it or decide whether it has been good or bad. Friday evening was the first half of our initiation , finished around 5:30ish, then went to Duke's with Marie and Becky. It was nice because for once, we got to just go and hang out without any sorority business going on that needed to be resolved or discussed. Just a regular dinner.... for the most part. JP and Ken came over and serenaded us before we left. Those boys are always so awesome (good singers too)
Saturday, woke up while it was still dark out and got ready for initiation part 2. It was definitely more chaotic than I would have liked... I don't even know why. Luckily (or not) a couple of the new girls overslept, so we had to call them and make sure they still were planning on coming. While we were waiting for them, I ran and got changed from my pj's. After initiation was done, went down to the pool to watch the first swim meet of the season (3 of our girls were swimming and I promised them that I would go) ended up going out to lunch with chelsea and lauryn and their parents.
So I have begun the grad school application process. The three schools I will be applying to at this point are USC, Indiana and Northwestern. I don't really know what's wrong with me, but I have become extremely insecure about my level as a musician. Especially applying to the schools of this caliber, I am definitely second guessing myself.
It sucks.
I don't know... just so many things that need to be taken care of, and I have to only focus on one or two things, not 10 or 11... It's finally gotten to the point where I am withdrawing myself from everything and people are noticing.
But honestly, I don't know how else to deal...
I can not wait until Feb 10 when all my auditions will be done with and over. I don't mind playing the waiting game at all because I know that there is nothing else I can do. But this preparation game is killing me...
just kidding of course.... but I sure as hell hope people love me, otherwise, I will be a very sad person
Anyways, this entire weekend has been weird. I really don't know what to make of it or decide whether it has been good or bad. Friday evening was the first half of our initiation , finished around 5:30ish, then went to Duke's with Marie and Becky. It was nice because for once, we got to just go and hang out without any sorority business going on that needed to be resolved or discussed. Just a regular dinner.... for the most part. JP and Ken came over and serenaded us before we left. Those boys are always so awesome (good singers too)
Saturday, woke up while it was still dark out and got ready for initiation part 2. It was definitely more chaotic than I would have liked... I don't even know why. Luckily (or not) a couple of the new girls overslept, so we had to call them and make sure they still were planning on coming. While we were waiting for them, I ran and got changed from my pj's. After initiation was done, went down to the pool to watch the first swim meet of the season (3 of our girls were swimming and I promised them that I would go) ended up going out to lunch with chelsea and lauryn and their parents.
So I have begun the grad school application process. The three schools I will be applying to at this point are USC, Indiana and Northwestern. I don't really know what's wrong with me, but I have become extremely insecure about my level as a musician. Especially applying to the schools of this caliber, I am definitely second guessing myself.
It sucks.
I don't know... just so many things that need to be taken care of, and I have to only focus on one or two things, not 10 or 11... It's finally gotten to the point where I am withdrawing myself from everything and people are noticing.
But honestly, I don't know how else to deal...
I can not wait until Feb 10 when all my auditions will be done with and over. I don't mind playing the waiting game at all because I know that there is nothing else I can do. But this preparation game is killing me...