Update (Finally)
After what seems like a dog's age, I'm finally able to update this sucker. The Internet at home has been down for a week, but now I have a little extra time at work and access to a computer (yay).
I guess my current state of mind could be summed up in one of my favorite songs: George Strait's "Forever and Ever, Amen." He talks about a father's love and in one of the verses says: "Last night I dreamed I died and stood outside those pearly gates/ It was then that I realized there must be some mistake/ If they knew half the things I'd done they'd never let me in..."
In my Sunday School small group we talked about the problem of guilt, which is something that I struggle with (often). The Bible says, "For we know that God did not give us a spirit of fear," and I suppose I've never fully understood that. God did not intend for us to be afraid of everything, and I know that now.
My mother told me today that I needed to step out of my comfort zone and at least make a strong attempt to apply for ODU. I don't know, but to me it seems like going back to LC and working on my degree there would be just as much a step out in faith. I know what my dream is, and I know how to get there, but the problem is application. Not that I'm lazy, but I guess it's that old fear- I am afraid, as much as I wouldn't want to admit it and know that I shouldn't be.
Either way, I keep reminding myself that I may not know what the plan is, but I always know there's a plan.
Sorry to cut this short, but I have to get going- how is everyone out there in Readerland?
I guess my current state of mind could be summed up in one of my favorite songs: George Strait's "Forever and Ever, Amen." He talks about a father's love and in one of the verses says: "Last night I dreamed I died and stood outside those pearly gates/ It was then that I realized there must be some mistake/ If they knew half the things I'd done they'd never let me in..."
In my Sunday School small group we talked about the problem of guilt, which is something that I struggle with (often). The Bible says, "For we know that God did not give us a spirit of fear," and I suppose I've never fully understood that. God did not intend for us to be afraid of everything, and I know that now.
My mother told me today that I needed to step out of my comfort zone and at least make a strong attempt to apply for ODU. I don't know, but to me it seems like going back to LC and working on my degree there would be just as much a step out in faith. I know what my dream is, and I know how to get there, but the problem is application. Not that I'm lazy, but I guess it's that old fear- I am afraid, as much as I wouldn't want to admit it and know that I shouldn't be.
Either way, I keep reminding myself that I may not know what the plan is, but I always know there's a plan.
Sorry to cut this short, but I have to get going- how is everyone out there in Readerland?