Ok, this is kinda scary..
..But in a very good way.. I am strongly thinking of a move to South Cali, the San Diego area to be exact.. there is so much for me there, and the air here is getting stagnant.. I'll miss my family, but like I have said, I need to start my own life.. and like many a Tarheel before me, maybe I'll find my fortunes in California *g* Not just money, but in growth, self-discovery, and just LEARNING.. I have felt so very tapped out around here lately.. the move would be a GOOD thing.. But I'm SCARED! lol
So much could go wrong, but so much could go right too.. When I was 20, I wouldn't have thought so much about it, I'd have been walking or bumming my way long before now.. But I guess I've grown up a bit and now I do this thinking things through thing and it makes me see all the dark corners as well as all the bright spots in the room before I step into it..
I also think about coming back here to NC and bringing so much back with me.. Weird that that's a goal for me.. I want so much for this area to grow and to change for the better.. but I need to grow a little more first, I think.. *sighs* Of course, a big PLUS is that my girl is in Cali and we'd be able to work on a more traditional relationship, where we see each other more then once or twice a year.. that's a concept.. lol the leather and poly dating pools seem to be larger out there as well, as well as FTM resources and support.. So yeah.. LOTS of plusses here for the move..
wow.. Now, I need to make this actually HAPPEN.. and I'm not sure where to even start! lol Having no money is a big hurdle.. But I know that I'm going to start selling stuff on e-bay and saving up a couple months rent or so, until I get a job or at least some living aid from the state.. then I can work my way up.. Maybe get some more schooling in.. Would be GREAT to be on a campus where I'm not the ONLY friggin' gay and OUT person and surrounded by hostile Christians.. lol
ahhh :) Yeah.. this is a good thing *g*
YAY 2007!
And is it just me, or are a LOT of folks on the move this year.. I have this mental image of lil colored dots rearranging and shifting on a huge world map.. lol ah well :) Times are a changin' *g*
Love and Light to all!
So much could go wrong, but so much could go right too.. When I was 20, I wouldn't have thought so much about it, I'd have been walking or bumming my way long before now.. But I guess I've grown up a bit and now I do this thinking things through thing and it makes me see all the dark corners as well as all the bright spots in the room before I step into it..
I also think about coming back here to NC and bringing so much back with me.. Weird that that's a goal for me.. I want so much for this area to grow and to change for the better.. but I need to grow a little more first, I think.. *sighs* Of course, a big PLUS is that my girl is in Cali and we'd be able to work on a more traditional relationship, where we see each other more then once or twice a year.. that's a concept.. lol the leather and poly dating pools seem to be larger out there as well, as well as FTM resources and support.. So yeah.. LOTS of plusses here for the move..
wow.. Now, I need to make this actually HAPPEN.. and I'm not sure where to even start! lol Having no money is a big hurdle.. But I know that I'm going to start selling stuff on e-bay and saving up a couple months rent or so, until I get a job or at least some living aid from the state.. then I can work my way up.. Maybe get some more schooling in.. Would be GREAT to be on a campus where I'm not the ONLY friggin' gay and OUT person and surrounded by hostile Christians.. lol
ahhh :) Yeah.. this is a good thing *g*
YAY 2007!
And is it just me, or are a LOT of folks on the move this year.. I have this mental image of lil colored dots rearranging and shifting on a huge world map.. lol ah well :) Times are a changin' *g*
Love and Light to all!