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Why does time work against me and so rapidly! Why does it wreak havoc on my body and my mind! I am aged beyond my years with worry. You can see it in my face. I cant hide it. If you once knew me many years ago, You would not recognize me now. I find myself lately seeking comfort in a past addiction. An uncommon one but still an unhealthy one. I had only done it a few times over a couple of years when I was younger but now I have a hard time just getting through the week. I think about it everyday. Its an escape. A portal to another time. To feel alive to feel anything but content. I am tired of being content. I am tired period. This thing I do..I dont wish to stop..because I dont want to stop feeling.