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Hey all, I know it's been awhile... there's not a whole lot that's new. Let's see....
I had my appointment for surgery on February 3rd. It went really well, I feel a lot better now that I've talked to everyone. I talked to a nutritionist, an exercise physiologist, a psychiatrist, an insurance specialist, and most importantly, the surgeon. Everyone was so nice... it was cool, they took you back to a little room like an office, with a desk and office chairs, and a computer, and then throughout the day, the different people would come see you. I also was weighed, had my bp taken, had breathing and blood sugar tests, and peed in a cup. Lol. The surgeon told me that I have every chance of success at losing up to 75% of my excess weight. She also said that since I'm in relatively good health, I face about a tenth of a percent chance of having serious complications- which is definitely good news. She also told me that when I'm ready I'll be able to have a perfectly healthy pregnancy.
I'm now on a 3 month supervised "diet," which is pretty much how I'll eat after I'm all healed up from the surgery. I have to keep food and exercise logs everyday, and take my bp and heart rate. All in all, it's not too bad... I'm having a little trouble getting started, I guess it's hard to break bad habits and start good ones, but I think that once I get in the swing of things it'll be okay. During the 3 months, the doctors/other professionals will check on me regularly to make sure I'm doing what I need to, and I have to meet all my "goals" before I'm cleared for surgery. After that, I get all my testing done (metabolic profile, chest x-ray, insulin levels, pap smear, breast exam... fun stuff), and then my case goes to insurance, which, if everything goes well, should take no longer than a month. After that, the pre-op appointment, and 2 weeks later, surgery.
It's a lot to do, and even more to think about, but for the first time in my life, I feel ready to do what I need to do for me. It's a very scary thing to change everything about yourself- trust me- but with help from those I love, I'm up for anything.
I guess it's been a little bit of a rough time lately... my grandpa is doing okay for the moment, but they're not doing chemo or anything, so the end is inevitable. I've always been so afraid of losing anyone I love, in fact, I'd say it's my biggest fear in life. I just feel kind of numb right now, like I don't know how to process it. I feel thankful for the time that he has to take care of things, but it's hard to see him losing his health. My mom isn't taking it well, but she's better than she was when we first found out. I just hope that I can be strong for her; I know she'll need it.
Steve and I are doing well, I'm so thankful he's stuck with me through all this. I look at myself sometimes, inside and outside, and wonder why he has... I've pushed and pushed him away, and then desperately tried to keep him... I don't know. I've never really known what I wanted, my feelings seem to change constantly... he's the only constant I have in my life. And I'd do anything for him... he knows that.
Anyway, I guess that's enough for now. Hope everyone's doing well. Happy Valentine's Day tomorrow!
I had my appointment for surgery on February 3rd. It went really well, I feel a lot better now that I've talked to everyone. I talked to a nutritionist, an exercise physiologist, a psychiatrist, an insurance specialist, and most importantly, the surgeon. Everyone was so nice... it was cool, they took you back to a little room like an office, with a desk and office chairs, and a computer, and then throughout the day, the different people would come see you. I also was weighed, had my bp taken, had breathing and blood sugar tests, and peed in a cup. Lol. The surgeon told me that I have every chance of success at losing up to 75% of my excess weight. She also said that since I'm in relatively good health, I face about a tenth of a percent chance of having serious complications- which is definitely good news. She also told me that when I'm ready I'll be able to have a perfectly healthy pregnancy.
I'm now on a 3 month supervised "diet," which is pretty much how I'll eat after I'm all healed up from the surgery. I have to keep food and exercise logs everyday, and take my bp and heart rate. All in all, it's not too bad... I'm having a little trouble getting started, I guess it's hard to break bad habits and start good ones, but I think that once I get in the swing of things it'll be okay. During the 3 months, the doctors/other professionals will check on me regularly to make sure I'm doing what I need to, and I have to meet all my "goals" before I'm cleared for surgery. After that, I get all my testing done (metabolic profile, chest x-ray, insulin levels, pap smear, breast exam... fun stuff), and then my case goes to insurance, which, if everything goes well, should take no longer than a month. After that, the pre-op appointment, and 2 weeks later, surgery.
It's a lot to do, and even more to think about, but for the first time in my life, I feel ready to do what I need to do for me. It's a very scary thing to change everything about yourself- trust me- but with help from those I love, I'm up for anything.
I guess it's been a little bit of a rough time lately... my grandpa is doing okay for the moment, but they're not doing chemo or anything, so the end is inevitable. I've always been so afraid of losing anyone I love, in fact, I'd say it's my biggest fear in life. I just feel kind of numb right now, like I don't know how to process it. I feel thankful for the time that he has to take care of things, but it's hard to see him losing his health. My mom isn't taking it well, but she's better than she was when we first found out. I just hope that I can be strong for her; I know she'll need it.
Steve and I are doing well, I'm so thankful he's stuck with me through all this. I look at myself sometimes, inside and outside, and wonder why he has... I've pushed and pushed him away, and then desperately tried to keep him... I don't know. I've never really known what I wanted, my feelings seem to change constantly... he's the only constant I have in my life. And I'd do anything for him... he knows that.
Anyway, I guess that's enough for now. Hope everyone's doing well. Happy Valentine's Day tomorrow!