GRRR!!
How can things change and get so fucked up so fast?
I swear to god, this time last week, everything was awesome... Now, everything in my life is just bad and I can't change it. Andrew and I are going thru shit, and I'm sad about that b cuz I really like him, but he legitimately just doesn't have the time to hang out w/ me and everything. Karen's pissed at me because I didn't list her as one of my best friends on a survey I took... not purposely to hurt her, but because I had so many people to list and really just didn't want to leave anyone out. Justin's having a hard time with his dad and everything, and I want to help, but I can't... I feel really bad for him. Joe's pissed at me b cuz we were supposed to hang out today and then I cancelled like the day of, when we've been planning this forever... I haven't seen him in like 7 months or some shit, and it really sucks bad that I can't now... My mom had finally started to trust me and was letting me do what I wanted, but now I fucked it up by failing a class, and I'm grounded until the end of this school year... that's like 7 weeks. I don't know what I'm going to do for that long... it's so fucking bad... and I'm meeting a lot of new people that I want to hang out with and everything, and now I got grounded... it's the worst timing in the fucking world, and my mom's being a bitch about it even tho I'm trying to explain to her that there are real reasons why I have problems with that class. But, honestly, I can't really be that mad at anyone because it's my own fucking fault... I just screwed everything up and there's nothing I can fucking do about it now.
I really just don't know what to do with all of this shit right now, because everything's just fucking BAD and I don't know what I'm supposed to do about it. There's no way I'm going to last this long being grounded without getting in trouble and making it longer. I'm seriously fucking doomed to be grounded forever, b cuz I can't handle being alone so I'm gonna want to be with my friends, and once I'm ungrounded, report cards come out again... it's a fucking pile of shit just waiting to dump on me, and I hate it.
I'm gonna quit ranting and go take a nap or something.
I want to get stoned and forget...
I wish I could leave my fucking house!
I swear to god, this time last week, everything was awesome... Now, everything in my life is just bad and I can't change it. Andrew and I are going thru shit, and I'm sad about that b cuz I really like him, but he legitimately just doesn't have the time to hang out w/ me and everything. Karen's pissed at me because I didn't list her as one of my best friends on a survey I took... not purposely to hurt her, but because I had so many people to list and really just didn't want to leave anyone out. Justin's having a hard time with his dad and everything, and I want to help, but I can't... I feel really bad for him. Joe's pissed at me b cuz we were supposed to hang out today and then I cancelled like the day of, when we've been planning this forever... I haven't seen him in like 7 months or some shit, and it really sucks bad that I can't now... My mom had finally started to trust me and was letting me do what I wanted, but now I fucked it up by failing a class, and I'm grounded until the end of this school year... that's like 7 weeks. I don't know what I'm going to do for that long... it's so fucking bad... and I'm meeting a lot of new people that I want to hang out with and everything, and now I got grounded... it's the worst timing in the fucking world, and my mom's being a bitch about it even tho I'm trying to explain to her that there are real reasons why I have problems with that class. But, honestly, I can't really be that mad at anyone because it's my own fucking fault... I just screwed everything up and there's nothing I can fucking do about it now.
I really just don't know what to do with all of this shit right now, because everything's just fucking BAD and I don't know what I'm supposed to do about it. There's no way I'm going to last this long being grounded without getting in trouble and making it longer. I'm seriously fucking doomed to be grounded forever, b cuz I can't handle being alone so I'm gonna want to be with my friends, and once I'm ungrounded, report cards come out again... it's a fucking pile of shit just waiting to dump on me, and I hate it.
I'm gonna quit ranting and go take a nap or something.
I want to get stoned and forget...
I wish I could leave my fucking house!