Are you pondering what I'm pondering?
So, a series of unrelated things in the past few weeks have led me to start to wonder what it is I want to do with my life. I feel like I have no direction right now and am just kind of floundering. Don't get me wrong, I'm doing a LOT. But I think I may be putting out a whole lot of effort in a number of different directions and not really accomplishing much with any of them. I hate the idea of giving up any pursuits, but I think it may be necessary if I want my depth in my life rather than a wide but shallow breadth.
I get a lot out of my participation at church, so I am not going to be giving up that. However, I should probably contemplate leaving the Social Justice Committee instead of constantly feeling guilty that I'm not help much there. I'm sure I can continue to bake for Family Promise if I want to. I really need to consider whether I am going to make a commitment to really practice and improve at my violin playing or put it back in the closet. Being in the orchestra takes a lot of time and effort and leads to a lot of guilt and stress when I'm not putting in the necessary effort. But I really don't want to give it up. So, I'm not sure what to do there. I think I might drop Positive Birth Movement once Lindsay fully takes over the BuffaloBirth Network chapter, which is then transitioning into the Buffalo chapter of Improving Birth. I should probably follow up with her on that.
So, lots of thoughts but not much in the way of decisions. Ah well, I'll get there eventually.. I hope.
I get a lot out of my participation at church, so I am not going to be giving up that. However, I should probably contemplate leaving the Social Justice Committee instead of constantly feeling guilty that I'm not help much there. I'm sure I can continue to bake for Family Promise if I want to. I really need to consider whether I am going to make a commitment to really practice and improve at my violin playing or put it back in the closet. Being in the orchestra takes a lot of time and effort and leads to a lot of guilt and stress when I'm not putting in the necessary effort. But I really don't want to give it up. So, I'm not sure what to do there. I think I might drop Positive Birth Movement once Lindsay fully takes over the BuffaloBirth Network chapter, which is then transitioning into the Buffalo chapter of Improving Birth. I should probably follow up with her on that.
So, lots of thoughts but not much in the way of decisions. Ah well, I'll get there eventually.. I hope.