[Football] Found things

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I was hoping to have more prompts written up by this balmy madrugada, but instead I've been waiting for my Spanish presentation to finish uploading. I should be in bed. I have to be up in five hours

Comments

[rondaview]

1 this thematic strand that winds through your gago/higuain too -- sex that toes noncon.
2 wanting gabriella to find out
3 "I love you" to "don't worry, ex-Prince of Lazio, you're just my steady fuck"
4 cheapness

I list these because they break me to pieces too. T_T I don't think reading your take on a/z (laksj i keep switching it up) is too healthy for me -- in fact I feel the overwhelming urge to go like, gorge on applefic now for all the happy nesta/zlatan, and not this mutual hatefest in which Nesta really fucking hates on Zlatan and Zlatan might love on Nesta but pulls a 180 to twist the knife all the more painfully because he sees that yes, Nesta ... really fucking hates him. I keep making this observation to others, but your Nesta really, really, really seems to despise Z-- it's a serious resentment that isn't (as) present in other versions (well, in the beginning yes, but not so late in the relationship). which is pretty fascinating and visceral to read but uuugh. does not bode well for my long sought-after happy z/n. *fends

[miman]

Danica, you say everything I want to. And much better.

I love this, love this to bits, this interaction like shards of glass, brilliant, cruel, sharp, bloody. Walking on shards on the pavement glittering in the afternoon sun, and it makes you feel alive, that wonder of bleeding.

[rondaview]

WHY DO YOU TWO KEEP FOLLOWING ME AROUND AND MAKING THESE COMMENTS TO MY FB??? This has got to be like, the 129879491st time since last year. Or maybe the 3rd.

but but but i don't want brilliant sharp bleeding. T_T_T_T_T this is an extreme version of how z/n could go, if you were to take nesta's ice princess image and extend it so far into his relationship with z as to generate hatred destruction selfdeception and just asfkjalksfa; for me, the happiness of this pairing hinges on what nesta is willing to allow, since i see him as being the one who's aloof, closed, etc etc, so this version of him is pretty much anathema to my desperately scrabbling romantic hahahaaaa. goddamnit. NOL, COME AND SAVE ME ;_____________;

[teinte]

If I tell you that in my heart of hearts I'm s silly romantic, will you laugh?

I have a habit of making the protagonists I love best suffer miserably in my writing. When I'm not busy writing crack about them, of course. But usually I end up making their black and white existences miserable, sepia drowned things.

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I can't think of how to properly reply to this comment as all it made me want to do was keymash and ♥ ghd;a

[canarycreams]

sono d'accordo. thank you for writing that so I didn't have to.

*RUNS TO CLASS, LOSES AT LIFE*

[teinte]

1. I really don't know where this comes from. I had a discussion with Serena about it last night and I'm convinced that I don't notice the non-con aspects as much because I have a rather frighteningly high threshold. For everything. D:
2. ILH. :(
3. Sigh.
4. This is the idea that was kind of riding throughout this entire thing for me. It's not that Nesta sees Zlatan as being cheap necessarily, it's like he feels like his relationship with Z and Gabriella is somehow cheapened by the whole thing. I would try to articulate on this more, but I'd probably just trip all over myself. I don't even know what I think of this pairing. I enjoy it and I can see a lot of possibilities with it but at the same time I never know what I want from it. I just tried discussing my views on it with Serena via chat and nothing came of it. I keep changing my mind and making no sense. :|

I keep making this observation to others, but your Nesta really, really, really seems to despise Z-- it's a serious resentment that isn't (as) present in other versions (

[rondaview]

Well, Nesta keeps saying no, doesn't he? And that no becoming nothing but foreplay.

re cheapness, no, I did (and do) understand what you're trying to say. It's not so much Ibra himself but the carrying on of the relationship, how he wants to and does hate him but at the same time there's a strain -- why is he still here, then? -- like (BLEEDINGLY OBVIOUS ANALOGY AHEAD! avert your eyes) a bad addiction you can't break, and it does make him feel cheap, this whoring out of the self. and for what? he can't explain it. that's the whole draw/hurt of the hatesex pairing. which, hay, you've taken from pre-relationship (eg. before they ever sleep with each other, they're fighting on the pitch) to inside it too.

I dunno, it just feels really, really dark and incredibly fucked up. I don't actually view Nesta as existing at that extreme end of the love-hate spectrum, although I can see how that interpretation originates and I have no trouble believing it (hence my T________T) but I was discussing this w/ applegnat, asking how she sees Sandro,

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... We're just talking ourselves in circles, aren't we. Cough.

I'm afraid so. Especially on my side of things because I'm such a flake and change my mind every other time I try to put down what I think about this pairing. It's difficult to wrap my mind around the two of them because it's like a see-sawing kind of vision with me. Because I've read your thoughts on them and Serena's and now applegnat's and they all work for me. One day I want to see them happy and shiny (if I ever finish those prompts, you'll see what I mean) and the next it's all doom and gloom. (Which strangely, also depends on which class I happen to be writing fic in. Calc = dull, very normal and almost clinical. Statistics clas = cracky Gago/Higuain type things. Religions = screwed up beyond comprehension. Sitting at home and writing, it depends on the music I'm listening to most of the time.)

But I love reading your thoughts on just about everything, so even if we're talking ourselves in circles, at least it's an interesting path (?).

[rondaview]

:D:D 'M SORRY FOR THE SPAM. people should just avoid me like the plague these days when it comes to zlatan/nesta; i inevitably end up gibbering to them (as they edge politely away) about the finer points of sandro's vidgame addiction or The Way Zlatan Lost His Virginity (LULLZZZ CANNOT GET OVER. IN THE HISTORY OF FOREVER I WILL NEVER GET OVER IT. OKAY!?) or perhaps most importantly, WHO TOPS. you should've seen these two emails i sent off to serena about z & n, combined they must've topped some 1500+ words D: (oh lulz, that's the same length of the essay i ... am furiously not writing at this instant. FTWWW BTCHES.)

PS BRMC LEAK SO FUCKING GOOD. thanks for linking, man.

[teinte]

DANICA, SRSLY, YOUR SPAM MAKES ME RLY HAPPY IN ALL OF ITS FORMS. ghd;ahgd;a That virginity story is just -- and your reply about the boy who maybe could have (should have) been the one in the threesome. I just about died. Serena mentioned something about the who tops thing. And before she could get a word in edge wise I said, "Nesta, duh." lulz. And ghd;a essays. I have to write one tomorrow morning in preparation for my religions class. Thankfully it only has to be 1--3 pages, but the topic is so sketch that I don't want to think about it. ;_; I swear all we talk about in that class in sex, sex and more sex. Usually sex that ends up badly for the poor indigenous people. :(

INORITE!? I'm so fucking happy with it. I'm definitely going to the concert. Even if Serena says she can't go with me. ;__; Also, feel free to share that link with your flist or whoever if you want. The more I listen to the album, the more I love it.