long time no see
If you've seen Chris and I together you probably wouldn't guess that we've been having problems, or had problems in general EVER. In reality though, we've almost broken up 3 times, usually because he gets depressed, thinks too much, like "you could find someone better than me" and tries to push me away.
This time i'm really scared though, its different from the other times. This time he says he doesn't feel the same about me as he did when we first went out. That he doesn't know if he loves me or not. We've been together for a year and 2 months now and I still love him so...soo much. He's been saying that when we're together its...not special, like I"m just there like a routine thing like school or work. He likes being with me, but it just feels like a routine...and he says he's bored with his life. Its always the same. And i'm just apart of that routine now apparently.
He wanted some time to think on what i mean to him, or how much i mean to him whatever, so I decided to go on a 2 week break from each other. No chatting, seeing, calling, anything for 2 weeks, and he'll tell me his consensus at the end. Whether he wants to stay with me or not. I just don't know what I'd do if he said he didn't want to be with me anymore.
I feel so lost right now...I really need help
it doesn't help tomorrow's homecoming...