copied from a deleted myspace blog
venting
it's amazing how you ravaged my soul
how you took me apart
and how i lost all control
and let you break my heart
and how now that you're "gone"
and i'm moving on
there's something trapped inside
that still hasn't died
though you ravaged my soul
and took me apart
when i lost all control
and you broke my heart
but the world will never see
what's in my subconscious
what's trapped inside of me
the fragments that remain of this
for what i can't deny myself
i can deny everyone else
rather than display upon a shelf
what my subconscious tells
yes you ravaged my soul
and took me apart
because i lost control
and gave you my heart
so now that you're "gone"
and we're moving on
i survive the unknown
as my heart finds its way home
and what the world doesn't know
about what i keep inside
rather than letting it show
is from what many have died
so i might as well say
now that you've gone away
i don't want you back
but thoughts of you still attack
though you're out of my life
and things are through with you
you cause my heart strife
though i don't want you to
it's amazing how you ravaged my soul
how you took me apart
and how i lost all control
and let you break my heart
yea. just wrote that right now. needed to vent. all i have to say is that i wish my subconscious and my conscious thoughts were in agreement. i hate waking up and remembering dreams that my conscious mind wouldn't dream of (no pun intended). it just shows me how far i still have to go, despite how far i think i've come, and just how little control i have over my emotions....and how i can have emotions i don't even think that i have. but i guess that's because emotions and thoughts are two almost entirely different things. ionno. i'm done. i have to study for my chem final. later.
it's amazing how you ravaged my soul
how you took me apart
and how i lost all control
and let you break my heart
and how now that you're "gone"
and i'm moving on
there's something trapped inside
that still hasn't died
though you ravaged my soul
and took me apart
when i lost all control
and you broke my heart
but the world will never see
what's in my subconscious
what's trapped inside of me
the fragments that remain of this
for what i can't deny myself
i can deny everyone else
rather than display upon a shelf
what my subconscious tells
yes you ravaged my soul
and took me apart
because i lost control
and gave you my heart
so now that you're "gone"
and we're moving on
i survive the unknown
as my heart finds its way home
and what the world doesn't know
about what i keep inside
rather than letting it show
is from what many have died
so i might as well say
now that you've gone away
i don't want you back
but thoughts of you still attack
though you're out of my life
and things are through with you
you cause my heart strife
though i don't want you to
it's amazing how you ravaged my soul
how you took me apart
and how i lost all control
and let you break my heart
yea. just wrote that right now. needed to vent. all i have to say is that i wish my subconscious and my conscious thoughts were in agreement. i hate waking up and remembering dreams that my conscious mind wouldn't dream of (no pun intended). it just shows me how far i still have to go, despite how far i think i've come, and just how little control i have over my emotions....and how i can have emotions i don't even think that i have. but i guess that's because emotions and thoughts are two almost entirely different things. ionno. i'm done. i have to study for my chem final. later.