Confession from the Chair
I sit in my computer chair leaning back after researching everything on heart murmurs I can find. After the last eighteen months, my place of refuge has been here. In front of my computer screen, in my leather chair. Here was where I told everyone I had lost the last baby to a tragic accident. Here was where I learned how many other people had gone though what I had been through. I found friends who was pregnant at the same time I was with Kairi through my facebook groups and learned to talk abut my feelings to people I have never met but was struggling too. 18 months of change that brought me back to my chair. When I found out that I needed an EKG, I came straight in the house to relax and to think. My confession is that I am scared. Scared that after everything I have been through, there might be a challenge I can't face. A fight that I might not win. So for now I sit here on my chair, and I breathe. For I know that no matter what is going on, I have my quiet spot. If my chair could talk, the tales it would tell, the emotions that it would express. But for now, its between me and the chair....and thats good enough for me.