Just to put things into perspective.
All right, so I haven't eaten yet today (I only woke up 3 quarters of an hour ago, but I was up until quite late... it's been a while since I've eaten, basically) and would quite like to eat some cereal.
But, I'm scared, because if I eat some cereal, that might trigger the reaction I get sometimes, where I eat, like, 3 more bowls, before I realise that, yes, I am actually full, and it's OK to stop eating.
This obviously isn't great for my health or my state of mental being (it's really hard to shake thoughts of "you are a pathetic moron and you might as well admit it to yourself" out of my head when this happens), but the more pressing issue, right now, is my wallet. I can't afford that much cereal. Cereal's expensive shit in Japan, man! In general, this fucking eating disorder costs me upwards of 1000 yen a day. That's about 10 American dollars. That's at LEAST 7000 yen a week. I DON'T HAVE that kind of money!
This eating disorder is ruining my life, and I fucking hate it. Seriously, LJ friends, if any of you, EVER, look in the mirror, declare yourselves "too fat", and go on diets that don't tend to work, I URGE you to stop it, right now. Because the consequences of treating food as the ultimate enemy for long periods of time are severe.
But, I'm scared, because if I eat some cereal, that might trigger the reaction I get sometimes, where I eat, like, 3 more bowls, before I realise that, yes, I am actually full, and it's OK to stop eating.
This obviously isn't great for my health or my state of mental being (it's really hard to shake thoughts of "you are a pathetic moron and you might as well admit it to yourself" out of my head when this happens), but the more pressing issue, right now, is my wallet. I can't afford that much cereal. Cereal's expensive shit in Japan, man! In general, this fucking eating disorder costs me upwards of 1000 yen a day. That's about 10 American dollars. That's at LEAST 7000 yen a week. I DON'T HAVE that kind of money!
This eating disorder is ruining my life, and I fucking hate it. Seriously, LJ friends, if any of you, EVER, look in the mirror, declare yourselves "too fat", and go on diets that don't tend to work, I URGE you to stop it, right now. Because the consequences of treating food as the ultimate enemy for long periods of time are severe.