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Why is it that there rarely is a middleground between a good day and a bad day? It seems to me, that either things just go very right, or things go very wrong, not too much of a mix.
Take for example, the day(s) when I did my interview and got a job. Getting a job +, I did well on my ECE 201 and 230 exams + +, homework was easy +. Overall those days were fairly good.
Yet today - absolutely terrible. I'll admit that my poor marks for my ECE201 and MTH234 exams are my own fault for not preparing enough. I'll admit that I deserve them, but it still sucks. Then we have this group project, which is not complete, despite our desire to be done Monday night. And I suppose the one that really matters as I had no control over what so ever, my grandpa passed away this evening. At about 5:30ish my dad called and informed me that he was moved to hospice, and at 10:30 I got a call from my sister telling me that he had passed away. And then the "if onlys" kick in. If only I was more prepared for my exams, if only this project was done, I could have gone home this evening and seen him one last time. I could have told him how much I loved him and how much he meant to me, and while I am fairly certain that he is well aware of that, live or not, I feel terrible for not being able to be there for my mom or sister. Not being there for my grandma. But no, I slack off during the year, and it makes it so I haave to be here for review stuff, it makes it so I have to be here so I dont completely fail all of my courses. I couldnt ride my bike home from the engineering building because tears made it difficult to see.
Ok, I really need to get some sleep because despite the fact that tomorrow is only a single class day - I have a small ton worth of things I need to complete before the day is over, namely getting my MSU Bill figured out, class, finishing the project, and cramming for ECE230 exam on Friday.
Take for example, the day(s) when I did my interview and got a job. Getting a job +, I did well on my ECE 201 and 230 exams + +, homework was easy +. Overall those days were fairly good.
Yet today - absolutely terrible. I'll admit that my poor marks for my ECE201 and MTH234 exams are my own fault for not preparing enough. I'll admit that I deserve them, but it still sucks. Then we have this group project, which is not complete, despite our desire to be done Monday night. And I suppose the one that really matters as I had no control over what so ever, my grandpa passed away this evening. At about 5:30ish my dad called and informed me that he was moved to hospice, and at 10:30 I got a call from my sister telling me that he had passed away. And then the "if onlys" kick in. If only I was more prepared for my exams, if only this project was done, I could have gone home this evening and seen him one last time. I could have told him how much I loved him and how much he meant to me, and while I am fairly certain that he is well aware of that, live or not, I feel terrible for not being able to be there for my mom or sister. Not being there for my grandma. But no, I slack off during the year, and it makes it so I haave to be here for review stuff, it makes it so I have to be here so I dont completely fail all of my courses. I couldnt ride my bike home from the engineering building because tears made it difficult to see.
Ok, I really need to get some sleep because despite the fact that tomorrow is only a single class day - I have a small ton worth of things I need to complete before the day is over, namely getting my MSU Bill figured out, class, finishing the project, and cramming for ECE230 exam on Friday.