Sorry Its Been A Long Time

[tech_chic]

Ok, so... Eric and I are still dating and we are doing better about not fighting, and I am doing better about not crying. I'm working on it. Today I was really bored, so I called Eric and guess what? NO ANSWER!!! Imagine that! To add insult to injury I kept telling myself he'll call, he loves me, he'll call. I was watching the phone all day and on the occasion that I'd call him his step dads sister would answer and so "no eric no here" or "no eric asleep" !!! Can you believe that!!!! I SURE AS HELL CAN'T!!!! I'm beating my self up because he's asleep? It's utterly ridiculous!! I love him so.............. much but he drives me crazy! He's a little child and I don't know how much I put up with. I guess if it's true love it'll last. I am so paranoid sometimes. It tears me up inside! I hate it. He goes hot and cold in 2 seconds flat! When he's cold he could freeze liquor. (if you didn't know you cant freeze liquor!) I don't know what to do and if anyone reads this PLEASE respond to it! I am running out of options besides the last one there is and I'm desparately trying to avoid it at all costs! I CAN'T loose him. Oh yeah, for those of you who didn't know i got in a wreck that totaled my new truck. Yes I know what you are thinking but, no, it wasn't my fault. She ran a red light and I'm actually getting more than we paid for it so it all works out in the end. Hopefully in another aspect of my life it will to! Talk to you later!
YOURS TRULY,
CHELSEA