I need someone to talk to!!!

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Yeah... So I really need someone to talk to because I can't talk to Eric about things when I'm mad because i can't talk without crying. I want sooo... much to not cry anymore and to be happy. I don't understand because this is the first time I don't want to be depressed. I don't want the attention because this is the first time I realized that the attention you get when your depressed isn't good. I love him, I really do I love Eric. And I know he's said it but I want to know for sure that he really loves it. See I know him he doesn't show feelings with me very easily he said he tries really hard and he has before but I'm not sure sometimes just because... my uncertainty happens. And I know the answer he'd give me if I asked him about it, He'd say "if I didn't love you I wouldn't have said it" but, Oh... I don't know... then there are those times that he says it out of no where. And its that kind of thing that makes me believe it but he's not always like that. I wan't so... much to not be paranoid and to be happy for him!!! ok well i guess i'm gonna go and I'll talk to you later! bye!
Urs Truly,
Chelsea

P.S. I'll try to write more often!