So this comes in the aftermath of possibly the hottest day I've experienced this 2011.

From 10:50 am til 3:30 pm (the height of sunshine and heat and ugh) I was out of the house with my mom and dad, because we visited my grandma and went shopping for groceries.  Roughly half of that period was spent in the van and the traffic was horrible and the ( Read more... )

The word 'pagan' does not have one incontestable definition.  Some definitions are pretty objective, i.e. this first one by The Free Dictionary: 1. An adherent of a polytheistic religion in antiquity, especially when viewed in contrast to an adherent of a monotheistic religion.  Some other definitions are bit less forgiving, i.e. the second one by ( Read more... )

February 18, 2011 was my last official day of classes in college.  So, last class.  3rd floor, Bellarmine Hall.  8:30 am.  I wish I could be more sentimental about it.  It was TH 151 with Dr. Rosana, and it consisted of a group presentation and this speech-like thing she gave in the end, about becoming worthy human beings and our Jesuit heritage of ( Read more... )

It is dead inside my brain, dead dead dead like a caged animal
Which used to spit fire and gnash fangs and claw its way through the most disobedient tufts of air,
the most persistent silences,  suddenly collapsed on itself and the cage vanished
And so did the darkness around it, the soil, the wafting folds of tent cloth
(for inside everyone has a ( Read more... )

What happens when the the assumptions and premises you hold about how something should turn out break down?

You get sad and introspective, that's what.

Like so.

( This is a blog entry on doubt and conviction. It is longer than necessary. Obvs. )

Coming out of a theology class so laid with meaning and depth it was magical, you have to wonder at all the other students around you milling and rushing about -- how can they survive today without a teacher like that, without hearing a lecture like the one you just listened to ( Read more... )

I have to leave in 30 minutes, to conduct a survey on a med school (ASMPH) in Ortigas.  But I also have to make a dent in a paper's review of related literature, and wouldn't you know, writing this is currently compromising those two things.  But I have established that some things are worth it, and the others are there to strengthen the self- ( Read more... )

I refuse to judge this for its literary value, but I was trying to give a voice to the desperation, okay.  Srsly.  The world is too dynamic to contain within an organ roughly 80 grams and the size of a pomegranate.

~

Every moment of my life I am missing something.  It is
inevitable that some things are left undone and undreamt, but why must I be ( Read more... )

Well, you know.

Love can't stop existing.

This didn't come from me, but the sentiments are similar. 
 Prayer of a Selfish Soul

- by Cory Copeland

Lord, I have been everything except what I should.
I have fought for my own way over yours,
And I have done nothing but fall short.
I am here for the sole purpose
Of requesting Your mercy once again.
I have chased my own dreams
And burned my ( Read more... )