...why do i fuck it up
i woke up at 9p i went to sleep at 4p i went health food shopping as well as my weekly slurge on nyquil for restless nites and dayquil for the morning sniffles. got some of those thera-thingy heat wraps. i like them in the mornings when i got to the bus stop. just took smore nyquil cuz i cant go to sleep and i kno i gotta. i bought $40 worth of groceries. im rambling for a few minutes more until i run out of sober vision. i like that. sober vision its my new thing. anyways, bought strawberry water, carbsmart icecream, a notepad, gum, 2 different protein bars, 5 yogurts, special k, carbsmart meal supplement shakes, the heat wraps, bottle nyquil, bottle dayquil, and 5 bags frozen veggies. going on a no-meat diet once again. it makes me feel better. i hate when my sleep pattern is messed with. but i obviously, do it to myself, consciously or not. ugh...school tomorrow. i have this thing in drama. gotta get up and lipsync a song in front of everybody. im not the leaaast bit prepared. i have an a in there anyways, im just gonna skip it. so what if it is like 300 points. i dont want to and i dont give a shit if my grades fall cause rite now its going down the shitter and im just sitting back on my mental trip waiting for you to kiss me. im determined to get skinny. ugh. im ashamed. i hate this. i wish i could keep my mouth shut and get it over with. p.s. nikki you're never home to talk and i like when we talk and go back and forth with meaningless lj comments. nos vemos mis amigos.