runonsentance
Things never looked so bizarre but clear at the same time and I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing because I just hope I don't fuck up like I always do because I just have a certain knack for doing that and I don't know why or how this is happening but it is and something in my logos just can't seem to accept that as fact I guess because I'm so used to things going to shit and it scares the fuck out of me because things like this are always too good to be true, at least in my experience, so I can't help but just be up really late and feel like something is going to happen and I know something is, I just don't know what this time and I have no idea what you think about all this, well I have an idea but I'm not really, truely sure and I just think that maybe my soul is going to explode or something from confusion and happiness and worry and anxiety and all that other shit that goes along with this type of stuff so if you could, just be really patient with me because I really don't want to mess this up and I just don't want either of us to get hurt and I think maybe you think that too although neither of us has really outright said it, we both know it's there and I just hope you're feeling this to the same extent I am and I'm really just happy that this is, I just want it to have the happy ending I'm not used to because there's just so many ways that I could go wrong but I think that maybe you could understand how I feel and maybe, somehow this time it will be different.
...if you don't, then this book's all lies
If you don't, then my plans will all be ruined
If you don't, I'll start drinking... like the way I drank before
And then I just won't have a future anymore
-::edit::- 2-1-04 (1:48 a.m.) I was stupid to have even thought...
...if you don't, then this book's all lies
If you don't, then my plans will all be ruined
If you don't, I'll start drinking... like the way I drank before
And then I just won't have a future anymore
-::edit::- 2-1-04 (1:48 a.m.) I was stupid to have even thought...