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Going to Kutztown for the weekend made me realize how BADLY I need to go away to college. So tomorrow, I'm going up to Bucks and enrolling full time for the fall so I can eventually transfer out and go somewhere FAR FAR FAR away. I mean thats my best bet. But I really don't want to go to Bucks at all. I'd rather just take the SAT and get out of here. Ah well. Ya gotta start somewhere I suppose. And i'm going to start some hobbies.
And I wouldn't mind laying and laughing with someone right now. Thats what I miss the most. When I see lovey dovey movies or couples all over eachother it really makes me realize how much this fucking sucks. A vibrator can only do so much y'know? Rather than just getting me off they should make a dildo that sits with you,holds a conversation,and gives you compliments. Am I really asking for too much?
Sometimes I feel like I'm a lost cause when it comes to attempting another relationship. I mean,if Dan and I broke up because we didn't work out ,it would've been fine. But the fact that hes with another chick a week later. That did a FUCKING NUMBER on my confidence. It completely DESTROYED me. I'm getting over it. I'm certainly better than I was before. A LOT BETTER. It's been almost three months and the healing process is just about over. I'm just experiencing the aftershock and the confusion of all of this. I'm not going to start looking yet. Well I'll be looking of course...
but
I'm going to let the next one just fall into my lap.
And I wouldn't mind laying and laughing with someone right now. Thats what I miss the most. When I see lovey dovey movies or couples all over eachother it really makes me realize how much this fucking sucks. A vibrator can only do so much y'know? Rather than just getting me off they should make a dildo that sits with you,holds a conversation,and gives you compliments. Am I really asking for too much?
Sometimes I feel like I'm a lost cause when it comes to attempting another relationship. I mean,if Dan and I broke up because we didn't work out ,it would've been fine. But the fact that hes with another chick a week later. That did a FUCKING NUMBER on my confidence. It completely DESTROYED me. I'm getting over it. I'm certainly better than I was before. A LOT BETTER. It's been almost three months and the healing process is just about over. I'm just experiencing the aftershock and the confusion of all of this. I'm not going to start looking yet. Well I'll be looking of course...
but
I'm going to let the next one just fall into my lap.