10 x 26000
hey
not like anyone reads this anyways...well besides deena and serena (yay!) anywayz..haven't updated, haven't really found a need to. haha and i still haven't made lj friends (sorry dee) anywayz...
damn i'm in a fucking weird shitty ass mood and i guess i need to vent. i've had a fucking lousey (is that how u spell it?) week, or month, or haha life...well more like few weeks. i've been feeling like shit, not that anyone cares..and i've fallen into temptation (not like anyone knows what i mean) but ya, and i guess i'm mad at myself cuz of that temptation and i've just been in these depressive moods i guess...i don't really show it though, i'm good at now showing what i feel...i've been having huge mood changes like one minute i'm normal then for the next 5 hours i'm in a fucking pissed off irritable mood...they're so fucking drastic it's freaky. i'm in a fucking pissed off mood rite now, fucking pissed off at this world, and life, and people...god i hate people sometimes, more like a lot of the time, more like always. dammit i'm freezing, people are shit, they're so self centered (haha look who's talking - me), they're so fake, they're so damn problematic (haha again - me) but i mean it just sucks that society is like that, society is just fucking screwed up. i was reading my dad's medical book, haha it's from the late 80's it's probably way outta date but anywayz it said that 26000 people commit suicide every year and it is attempted 10 times that number. that's a lot...i have to admit it's not like i haven't thought about it...i guess everyone has at some point or another in their life, except the extremely abnormal fucking happy/no problems. "oh i love life" people, but i guess they've probably thought about it too.
Life is weird, Life sucks.
Suicide - consists of the thoughts
[wish to kill] [wish to be killed] [wish to die]
[10 x 26000]
not like anyone reads this anyways...well besides deena and serena (yay!) anywayz..haven't updated, haven't really found a need to. haha and i still haven't made lj friends (sorry dee) anywayz...
damn i'm in a fucking weird shitty ass mood and i guess i need to vent. i've had a fucking lousey (is that how u spell it?) week, or month, or haha life...well more like few weeks. i've been feeling like shit, not that anyone cares..and i've fallen into temptation (not like anyone knows what i mean) but ya, and i guess i'm mad at myself cuz of that temptation and i've just been in these depressive moods i guess...i don't really show it though, i'm good at now showing what i feel...i've been having huge mood changes like one minute i'm normal then for the next 5 hours i'm in a fucking pissed off irritable mood...they're so fucking drastic it's freaky. i'm in a fucking pissed off mood rite now, fucking pissed off at this world, and life, and people...god i hate people sometimes, more like a lot of the time, more like always. dammit i'm freezing, people are shit, they're so self centered (haha look who's talking - me), they're so fake, they're so damn problematic (haha again - me) but i mean it just sucks that society is like that, society is just fucking screwed up. i was reading my dad's medical book, haha it's from the late 80's it's probably way outta date but anywayz it said that 26000 people commit suicide every year and it is attempted 10 times that number. that's a lot...i have to admit it's not like i haven't thought about it...i guess everyone has at some point or another in their life, except the extremely abnormal fucking happy/no problems. "oh i love life" people, but i guess they've probably thought about it too.
Life is weird, Life sucks.
Suicide - consists of the thoughts
[wish to kill] [wish to be killed] [wish to die]
[10 x 26000]