wrathful
Im getting older, as i am also growing colder. Becoming less and less tolerant of people and their insecurities, their arrogance, and their hypocrisy. Honestly, i think if 3/4th of the worlds population was wiped out. You'd see alot of people treating people alot better. Sure you might have your occasional skirmish over the local watering hole. But you wouldn't see the blatant discard.. Disregard.. disrespect.. Dishonesty.. and disuse you have today. Of one person to another.
Everything is so throw away, Throw away relationships, throw away marriages, throw away friendships... throw away pets. Nothing has any value, yet we are so vain in thinking that we ARE so important that we are so NEEDED by others that without our existence those we know could not possiable go on.
Well, i know that when i die, the only people that will miss me is my children if i have any. Other then that, nobody else would give a shit. hell if i was to die right now.. nobody would give a shit.
But, I hunger for this life for two reasons. I want to contribute. I care about the world around me. Misanthropic ambivlialant caregiving... Deep down im worried if i ever have to make a decision. What worries me i sthe decision that i make one way or another.
So i had this dream, that i was face to face with this guy i use to know... I called him a friend once. well through a series of lies, half-truths and admittance.. and down right gut feelings. I found out what was going on. In this dream, i tore him open, gutted him. Burned some of his insides infront of him. Then dropped a hungry rat in what was left of him.
And ya know, it made me feel kinda good inside.
Ya i'm loseing it big time!
Everything is so throw away, Throw away relationships, throw away marriages, throw away friendships... throw away pets. Nothing has any value, yet we are so vain in thinking that we ARE so important that we are so NEEDED by others that without our existence those we know could not possiable go on.
Well, i know that when i die, the only people that will miss me is my children if i have any. Other then that, nobody else would give a shit. hell if i was to die right now.. nobody would give a shit.
But, I hunger for this life for two reasons. I want to contribute. I care about the world around me. Misanthropic ambivlialant caregiving... Deep down im worried if i ever have to make a decision. What worries me i sthe decision that i make one way or another.
So i had this dream, that i was face to face with this guy i use to know... I called him a friend once. well through a series of lies, half-truths and admittance.. and down right gut feelings. I found out what was going on. In this dream, i tore him open, gutted him. Burned some of his insides infront of him. Then dropped a hungry rat in what was left of him.
And ya know, it made me feel kinda good inside.
Ya i'm loseing it big time!