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[tears_of_isha]

I'm hollow today, something is missing gone... left me. The gapeing hole that remains is filling up with a nameless hate. Hate for those people i care for. Hate for where i am in life. I'm growing restless for no reason.

Its like i woke up and didn't want to be human anymore. I just don't want to deal with anything. or anybody. yet, im alone... destitute and afraid. I want to go home, where ever that home is. I want to be away. From this place. this county this community...

I want to start over... all over again... one last time.

And just maybe.

I won't fuck up.

I am not the eyes you remember,
the breath you smell is not from then,
Never was... me

I am not the eyes you remember,
from those times when my face wasn't so clear
where the words were twisted

and lies became far more welcome then truth.

i am not the eyes you remember,