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Well I'm officially depressed again. I was reading bebo comments from my bf and another girl and shes been wanting to hang out with him and ask him questions. The comments were from 5 weeks ago. But still. I cant believe it. And I guess it doesnt really suprise me. She is the same girl that he was trying to decided between her and I. I of course won. But I guess I shouldnt care. I mean if I confront him he would just put in my face that I have a lot of guy friends. Which is completely different because I never had a huge ass crush on any of my friends. And this girl was like his dream before he and I hooked up. Sometimes I think he would rather be with her than I. Well I havent lost any weight because everybody and everything have been pissing me off lately and I tend to forget I'm fat for split seconds when I binge. It fucking blows. My friends are finally back from their band camp (ha ha) and we're hanging out tonight I hope. I miss them. But then I dont. I'm still fat and cant seem to have any fun when I look like this. Ew. Anywho I gotta get ready for work. Ciao