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Jul 06, 2015 06:25

So yesterday was really bad. It's been four months but yesterday was really bad. I'm actually lucky that I had plans in the evening to watch the USWNT game because it's the only reason I got out of bed ( Read more... )

i do self pity well enough

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rachg82 July 6 2015, 11:44:35 UTC
Is staying in bed all day a regular thing for you lately though? Or was it an exception to the norm, triggered exclusively by seeing those pictures? I only ask to help me understand how best to reply in a supportive way.

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teachlikeroslin July 6 2015, 12:15:00 UTC
These days it's not uncommon. The severity of yesterday was less common.

Well, I maybe take the severity comment back. It was less severe a few weeks ago but it's come back again with a vengeance. Ugly snotty sobbing, hard to breathe kind of action that was typical in the beginning.

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rachg82 July 6 2015, 18:52:52 UTC
Do you mind if I ask whether your doctor has prescribed you anything yet for these symptoms? Or are you strictly doing therapy?

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teachlikeroslin July 6 2015, 20:15:06 UTC
No medication. Just therapy.

To be honest, I really don't want medication. Needed it will mean that something physical has actually changed in my body, right? From before? I don't want her to have that kind of power.

Irrational? Maybe. But true.

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rachg82 July 6 2015, 23:13:37 UTC
The only power she has over you in this case though is the power you choose to give her. No one besides you, your doctor, and your pharmacist even has to know. And it's not like you'd be signing your name on some contract, declaring, "I'm going to take psych meds forever now!" It's not all about her anyway, even if she has been the central trigger (you said it yourself: you had self-esteem problems before this. You might've just been at the wrong place at the right time, y'know? Basically, whatever sparked the initial flame is kind of not the point anymore if the fire's spread to the whole house ( ... )

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