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i miss texas alot. i got back sunday night. it went swell.
monday & today.. terrible except for the Foley game & hanging out with Jeni.
i dont even know anymore. its like. i was happy while i was in texas & the night back was great. but now its like...back to the family life. everybody is crabby. its not even funny. Ram day was terrible. i tried to make a joke to my sister about something i dont member what & she just like blew up on me & cuss'd me out for no reason. my mom picked me up & barley talked to me & she hadnt seen me since the 2nd of Aug. it was terrible. we picked up mrn & shes like asking him how his day was & stff & she didnt even ask me anything. i was a little bummed. then later i was looking for the west virginia shirt. & i went in er room & she woke up & i was like sorry im looking for a shirt you can go back to sleep. shes like huh? i was like you can go back too sleeeep. & she swore at me told me to just stay at dads ect.so i went bac to the front room & laid on the couch jr went to the other couch & fell asleep & i cried.
& my dad over-reacts things & whatnot.
& then earlier today i broke down. just cried over little things. total & complete melt down. theres something wrong with me? idk.
i wanted to call somebody. anybody. but i cant urge myself to burden someone bcos im crying. & i hate knowing that i may be bothering someone by bitching about my problems. it sucks.
i think im a too needy/wanty person. bcuz i need to feel comforted when im not happy; i need to know that i can express everything to a close friend. & i want to have the security that someones there & won get mad at the things i say. & i want to be understood; out of all things. idk if that mkes me sound selfish or not. but i just cant handle everything going on.
sorry this is so long. ill stop now cos i need to go practice some softball stuff.
comment me sometihng idc wat just something.
-sasa
monday & today.. terrible except for the Foley game & hanging out with Jeni.
i dont even know anymore. its like. i was happy while i was in texas & the night back was great. but now its like...back to the family life. everybody is crabby. its not even funny. Ram day was terrible. i tried to make a joke to my sister about something i dont member what & she just like blew up on me & cuss'd me out for no reason. my mom picked me up & barley talked to me & she hadnt seen me since the 2nd of Aug. it was terrible. we picked up mrn & shes like asking him how his day was & stff & she didnt even ask me anything. i was a little bummed. then later i was looking for the west virginia shirt. & i went in er room & she woke up & i was like sorry im looking for a shirt you can go back to sleep. shes like huh? i was like you can go back too sleeeep. & she swore at me told me to just stay at dads ect.so i went bac to the front room & laid on the couch jr went to the other couch & fell asleep & i cried.
& my dad over-reacts things & whatnot.
& then earlier today i broke down. just cried over little things. total & complete melt down. theres something wrong with me? idk.
i wanted to call somebody. anybody. but i cant urge myself to burden someone bcos im crying. & i hate knowing that i may be bothering someone by bitching about my problems. it sucks.
i think im a too needy/wanty person. bcuz i need to feel comforted when im not happy; i need to know that i can express everything to a close friend. & i want to have the security that someones there & won get mad at the things i say. & i want to be understood; out of all things. idk if that mkes me sound selfish or not. but i just cant handle everything going on.
sorry this is so long. ill stop now cos i need to go practice some softball stuff.
comment me sometihng idc wat just something.
-sasa