pregnancy news
I had an appointment with the obstetrician, and after discussing how I'm feeling and how things went with my first labour and delivery, she's decided that she wants to induce me at 37 1/2 weeks. That means that instead of figuring I'd have the baby the week of November 23rd (I'm due December 1), I'm having this baby the week of November 9th.
I called Mike and he's casual about it, and happy that it's sooner rather than later. He's concerned about the pains that I have on a regular basis and thinks it's for the best.
Then I came back to work and told my boss that I'll be off MUCH earlier than expected. I'd already changed my maternity leave from my last day being November 27th to November 20th, and now it's changed to November 6th. However, I'm just taking holidays from the 9th to the 20th, and then they can change the paperwork once I have the baby.
I'm not so casual about the whole thing, in fact I'm a little freaked out. Not because I don't think the baby is ready, but because I don't know if I'm ready. Alex is, she keeps asking me when the baby is coming out of my tummy, and talking about all the things she's going to do with the baby.
I feel a lot more prepared now - during the week I did lots of cleaning and washing so there's clothes etc. for the baby now. I just have to strip the crib and wash everything there.....Mike, wanting to surprise me and make me feel more excited made the crib up with all the bedding, and I didn't have the heart to tell him that I still have to re-wash it all from when it was packed away. That will be tonight's project for before he gets home from work.
He slept on the couch last night - he came home from work feeling very flu-ish so instead of being able to get a good night's sleep to try and kick it, he hunkered down on the couch because he doesn't want to infect me, thanks honey!
I'm just filled with anxiety about this birth and baby, way more so than I was with Alex and I just can't seem to be as excited as I think I should be. I think I'm more excited about staying home with Alex for a year, than I am at the birth of my next child - and I feel so shitty about that. I wonder if anyone else has those feelings. It's not that I don't love this little one already, it's just so different and I feel so unprepared. Funny, considering I already have one and know what to do this time.
Any way, the clock is ticking!
I called Mike and he's casual about it, and happy that it's sooner rather than later. He's concerned about the pains that I have on a regular basis and thinks it's for the best.
Then I came back to work and told my boss that I'll be off MUCH earlier than expected. I'd already changed my maternity leave from my last day being November 27th to November 20th, and now it's changed to November 6th. However, I'm just taking holidays from the 9th to the 20th, and then they can change the paperwork once I have the baby.
I'm not so casual about the whole thing, in fact I'm a little freaked out. Not because I don't think the baby is ready, but because I don't know if I'm ready. Alex is, she keeps asking me when the baby is coming out of my tummy, and talking about all the things she's going to do with the baby.
I feel a lot more prepared now - during the week I did lots of cleaning and washing so there's clothes etc. for the baby now. I just have to strip the crib and wash everything there.....Mike, wanting to surprise me and make me feel more excited made the crib up with all the bedding, and I didn't have the heart to tell him that I still have to re-wash it all from when it was packed away. That will be tonight's project for before he gets home from work.
He slept on the couch last night - he came home from work feeling very flu-ish so instead of being able to get a good night's sleep to try and kick it, he hunkered down on the couch because he doesn't want to infect me, thanks honey!
I'm just filled with anxiety about this birth and baby, way more so than I was with Alex and I just can't seem to be as excited as I think I should be. I think I'm more excited about staying home with Alex for a year, than I am at the birth of my next child - and I feel so shitty about that. I wonder if anyone else has those feelings. It's not that I don't love this little one already, it's just so different and I feel so unprepared. Funny, considering I already have one and know what to do this time.
Any way, the clock is ticking!