lifes a bitch
well this week as been a roller coaster ride. it was fun until now. i rieach the top hoping for a steady ride before i hit another downward slope again.but once again i was wrong. it seems that things get harder and worse every day. but all i can do is try to hold my chin high and hope for the best.but that won't happen i know it won't so i guess i just have to cope. i hate my age.(regards to previous post) i rember when i was younger all i could do was wish to be 18 so i could be in the union. that was my dream. but now that ive reached that point idk.i look back and see all that i missed. dateing(on a steady level at least not this one week crap i use to pull in la) homecoming, prom shit like that. well i guess i got what i wished for.no ones to blame but me. i fell for some one but they don't feel the same for me but oh well i guess i will always have there friend ship. i think that should be good anough.i know ill get over it just how long it will take i have no clue. this is actualy the first time ive felt this way so its a new feeling for me. in the past it was cut and dry oh ok what ever. but that was la. well im out issac is on his way he feeling down so i think i would be a good idea for both of use to hang out. keep each other from doing something stupid. well i know i won't shit i can't... i guess monday ill go back to utep and just submerse my self in work..... im going to hate the rocky horror pickture show. dammit why did they have to casted anthony stokes. that guy grosses me out.