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[tbs1487]

wow... thats all that i can say. i dont know what to do right now, im so afraid that the life that i have been getting used to will morph into the days of the past. i cant handle this. if it happens to my family again, i wont be able to stay with them. i will have to go somewhere. if i go with them, i will just end up seriously depressed once more

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Re: i miss u

[tbs1487]

yeah... ive noticed this too. idk. i wasnt doing the whole "now that i have andy, i dont need anybody else" thing. ive been really busy, & i really dont get to see him except for the weekends, which is why i havent really had that much time to hang out. idk. i kind of felt like you were changing, & i didnt really know how to react. lately, youve been really depressed, & it seems like everytime i go to talk to you... something is wrong. that gets to me, & its hard on me... i was at a point where i really didnt know what i could say/do anymore. i dont want you to be like that; i want you to be happy, i just dont know how i can help right now. cause, i tried to help before, & basically you just shoved my suggestions right back at me. that hurt. basically, i kind of got the feeling that weve been drifting. its weird, cause our conversations have been akward, & like... idk. i get the feeling that maybe its b/c weve both changed. i wasnt sure if you were mad at me, or felt like we dont relate as much since im not depressed anymore. i dont want you to think im trying to be a bitch, im just telling you whats been on my mind. if im wrong, tell me. i just want to clear things up. i love the fact that you trust me, & tell me things... cause i trust you too. just, it can be a little much for me to handle at times. cause, when i try to help you, then help some other friends like kait, or courtney, or whatnot... it feels like im trying to shoulder everyones problems, & then ive had some family issues this past week that were of a more serious nature. i wasnt angry at you. i was just frustrated/stressed out. idk what it will take on my behalf to help you be more happy, but i want to help, just i felt like you never gave me a chance to really. but yeah... i think we should find some time to talk this over in person. i just wanna clear things up/go back to being good friends again.