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wow... thats all that i can say. i dont know what to do right now, im so afraid that the life that i have been getting used to will morph into the days of the past. i cant handle this. if it happens to my family again, i wont be able to stay with them. i will have to go somewhere. if i go with them, i will just end up seriously depressed once more. i cant just sit there, & watch my family try so hard, just to be fucking denied a decent life, even though they are all good people. they dont deserve this. its unjust, & having to stand idly by, & watch this happen just kills me. i dont know what to do. i dont know how i can help. all i know is that, last time this happened, i was the most miserable that i have ever been. im not sure if this will be resolved or not... but the situation is already starting to take its toll. i have no appetite. im really sad right now. i talked to courtney & kait today, & i started crying both times. i tried to keep a smile on my face, & agree that everything will be alright. well, i really hope that everything will be alright. i prayed so hard last night that things would just sort themselves out... but, im scared. my mom doesnt understand my reaction to this... or, if she does, she thinks its pointless. but, all i know is that, if worse comes to worse... i will have a place to stay... i hope.