Sdoacg 2x08
Warning - contains opinions that might be highly unpopular.
Okay, I'm really really nervous about tonight's episode, especially because I don't see how things could possibly end well between Hannah and Alex and I don't want Callum Blue to go.
*deep breath*
*presses play*
MmmmmmmmCallum Blue's torso. Arse of Callum Blue. Nom nom nom. Goooooood start... *rewinds*
Uh oh, Hannah... famous last words...
Hee, love Billie's smug grin in camera after she looks at Callum's arse in the mirror...
Oh, they're so cute.
I always hated Stephanie.
Okay, this is their plan. Kill me with sweetness and then crush me when it all goes to hell. I just wanna SQUISH them both!
Hey, arabian, here's the white shirt that was out of place last ep... maybe they did it all in one day and got mixed up?
Ouch, Hannah, lying already...
Whoops, pregnant belly shot!
Sex therapist?? Hahaha!
"Listening to people... asking questions?" All in the delivery. And the hand gesture! Billie, how I love thee.
Writer??
Aw, sweet Ben, he's a really good friend.
Ouch, and the job thing is out already...
"Once upon a time..." LOOOOOL!
Love the written words in sovrimpression.
Ha! She hasn't written anything!
Ouch, I'm really feeling for Hannah... she's trying, but it's not easy.
And Billie is so pregnant...
Ouch. Ouch ouch ouch. Hannah is reaching out to Alex, but he's rightfully angry about the job thing and isn't amenable... what a mess.
Poor Bambi, trying to help, and Hannah lashing out at everything and everyone.
Ben, DO SOMETHING!
Christ, a double-bottom UNDER THE BISCUITS?
And this monologue is why she's not ready to quit. Oh, God, had to pause. What if it's Alex behind the door, testing her???
FUCK!!!! I WAS JOKING!!! I feel like crying.
I am crying.
"I didn't want... any of this. I wanted Hannah. Not Belle"
"They're one and the same".
"We did everything right".
Oh my goodness, isn't that how series 1 started?? She's doing it!
I feel really sad.
It doesn't feel like they're planning for a series 3... where else is there to go? This is a good place to end it.
*sniff*
ETA: Can't sleep... Maybe I shouldn't do meta while I'm still so shaken up, but I need to get this out.
I can't agree with Alex's speech about "a light gone out" in Hannah. I still firmly believe that choosing to do this job is due to a fundamental lack of self-worth and self-esteem. She needed help. Not like rehab, but not that dissimilar. I think she was reaching out to Alex before going to Stephanie, and if his answer had been different (if he hadn't set up the whole thing), if he'd helped her, she wouldn't have gone through with it. She was really trying, and it wasn't something she planned, she rushed into it because she was having a very bad day, she had a set back, felt lost, like she couldn't figure out her life and all her efforts were for nothing and of course in a moment of weakness and emotional distress she's going to turn to what for so long made her feel safe and worthy and special. Like an alcoholist with a drink. She needed Alex to talk her out of it, and he wasn't there.
I don't know, I don't have any personal experience with addicts or anything of this kind so I'm probably talking out of my ass, but to work out these kinds of issues you need the help and support and understanding of everyone around you. You're going to slip, and have set-backs, and you need the people who love you to help you stand back up and encourage you to try again. But even Alex's word at the hotel... You wouldn't tell an alcoholist after their first relapse "you love drinking more than you love me, you look happier when you do it, so go and have at it!". Um, WTF? What about talking to her? Figuring out if it was a though-out decision? Something she really wanted? Or if it was just a relapse? What about trying to help her to find something (else!) that she'd really love doing as a job? I wouldn't want to push papers around either, but c'mon, she's a smart girl and a college graduate, there HAD to be something better! I felt like she was crying for help, and Alex basically just told her "I knew you couldn't do it. Nevermind. It was good while it lasted". The only person she ever loved enough to let herself be loved, and be pushed to take a good look at herself and made her want to change, and he gives up on her at the first bump in the road. That he orchestrated! Giving her a speech like that. Of course she was going to go right back to it. To hiding fragile Hannah behind the mask that is Belle. And she's never going to let herself be that vulnerable again, never again going to let the walls down. Never again going to risk disappointing, and being disappointed by, someone else. That's what her last "never", with accompanying smirk, felt like to me.
I'm not saying she had it all figured out. I'm not saying it was even going to work. But... they didn't try. I felt like the script and the story were brilliant up to when Alex opened that hotel room door... and then they needed to end the episode (and the series) in ten minutes and took the easy way out. And while I always argued against everyone that said this show was glorifying prostitution, I think this is a little what they did, in those last ten minutes. Ben and Bambi didn't feel like supporters. To me, they became enablers.
And I feel like I have a lot more to say, but I will add it at another time because I'm knackered and don't think I'm making any sense anymore.
I'm going to miss this show.
Okay, I'm really really nervous about tonight's episode, especially because I don't see how things could possibly end well between Hannah and Alex and I don't want Callum Blue to go.
*deep breath*
*presses play*
MmmmmmmmCallum Blue's torso. Arse of Callum Blue. Nom nom nom. Goooooood start... *rewinds*
Uh oh, Hannah... famous last words...
Hee, love Billie's smug grin in camera after she looks at Callum's arse in the mirror...
Oh, they're so cute.
I always hated Stephanie.
Okay, this is their plan. Kill me with sweetness and then crush me when it all goes to hell. I just wanna SQUISH them both!
Hey, arabian, here's the white shirt that was out of place last ep... maybe they did it all in one day and got mixed up?
Ouch, Hannah, lying already...
Whoops, pregnant belly shot!
Sex therapist?? Hahaha!
"Listening to people... asking questions?" All in the delivery. And the hand gesture! Billie, how I love thee.
Writer??
Aw, sweet Ben, he's a really good friend.
Ouch, and the job thing is out already...
"Once upon a time..." LOOOOOL!
Love the written words in sovrimpression.
Ha! She hasn't written anything!
Ouch, I'm really feeling for Hannah... she's trying, but it's not easy.
And Billie is so pregnant...
Ouch. Ouch ouch ouch. Hannah is reaching out to Alex, but he's rightfully angry about the job thing and isn't amenable... what a mess.
Poor Bambi, trying to help, and Hannah lashing out at everything and everyone.
Ben, DO SOMETHING!
Christ, a double-bottom UNDER THE BISCUITS?
And this monologue is why she's not ready to quit. Oh, God, had to pause. What if it's Alex behind the door, testing her???
FUCK!!!! I WAS JOKING!!! I feel like crying.
I am crying.
"I didn't want... any of this. I wanted Hannah. Not Belle"
"They're one and the same".
"We did everything right".
Oh my goodness, isn't that how series 1 started?? She's doing it!
I feel really sad.
It doesn't feel like they're planning for a series 3... where else is there to go? This is a good place to end it.
*sniff*
ETA: Can't sleep... Maybe I shouldn't do meta while I'm still so shaken up, but I need to get this out.
I can't agree with Alex's speech about "a light gone out" in Hannah. I still firmly believe that choosing to do this job is due to a fundamental lack of self-worth and self-esteem. She needed help. Not like rehab, but not that dissimilar. I think she was reaching out to Alex before going to Stephanie, and if his answer had been different (if he hadn't set up the whole thing), if he'd helped her, she wouldn't have gone through with it. She was really trying, and it wasn't something she planned, she rushed into it because she was having a very bad day, she had a set back, felt lost, like she couldn't figure out her life and all her efforts were for nothing and of course in a moment of weakness and emotional distress she's going to turn to what for so long made her feel safe and worthy and special. Like an alcoholist with a drink. She needed Alex to talk her out of it, and he wasn't there.
I don't know, I don't have any personal experience with addicts or anything of this kind so I'm probably talking out of my ass, but to work out these kinds of issues you need the help and support and understanding of everyone around you. You're going to slip, and have set-backs, and you need the people who love you to help you stand back up and encourage you to try again. But even Alex's word at the hotel... You wouldn't tell an alcoholist after their first relapse "you love drinking more than you love me, you look happier when you do it, so go and have at it!". Um, WTF? What about talking to her? Figuring out if it was a though-out decision? Something she really wanted? Or if it was just a relapse? What about trying to help her to find something (else!) that she'd really love doing as a job? I wouldn't want to push papers around either, but c'mon, she's a smart girl and a college graduate, there HAD to be something better! I felt like she was crying for help, and Alex basically just told her "I knew you couldn't do it. Nevermind. It was good while it lasted". The only person she ever loved enough to let herself be loved, and be pushed to take a good look at herself and made her want to change, and he gives up on her at the first bump in the road. That he orchestrated! Giving her a speech like that. Of course she was going to go right back to it. To hiding fragile Hannah behind the mask that is Belle. And she's never going to let herself be that vulnerable again, never again going to let the walls down. Never again going to risk disappointing, and being disappointed by, someone else. That's what her last "never", with accompanying smirk, felt like to me.
I'm not saying she had it all figured out. I'm not saying it was even going to work. But... they didn't try. I felt like the script and the story were brilliant up to when Alex opened that hotel room door... and then they needed to end the episode (and the series) in ten minutes and took the easy way out. And while I always argued against everyone that said this show was glorifying prostitution, I think this is a little what they did, in those last ten minutes. Ben and Bambi didn't feel like supporters. To me, they became enablers.
And I feel like I have a lot more to say, but I will add it at another time because I'm knackered and don't think I'm making any sense anymore.
I'm going to miss this show.