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Tonight was a pannel on Isriel and Palestine. It was well done. I don't know where I stand on that issue, I think both parties could be better, there are faults on both sides. But as far as taking a side, right now I won't. I need more information. Movie at Tony's house. Velvet Goldmine. It was intense, but a really good movie. Connell's in town, I got to see him yesterday. Catch up. I introduced him to a few of my friends, I think they really like him. Some didn't get a chance to talk much to him. But he'll be in town for 35 days, so hopefully. Sometimes I love him, sometimes I hate him. I really don't know which, I don't think I would get as upset about the war and things of that nature if there weren't some sort of feelings there. I just don't know ... and I think I may have complicated things. Fuck it. Sometimes I wish he would go away, others I wish he would hold me. I don't know what's going on. And what's aweful, he could die at any time. If he does, he's told me that his mother and I are getting flags. A flag, a fucking flag, that's what the government gives you if they cause your child or friend to die. A fucking flag. I'd rather have my friend.