All For Love
~Jade~
I sat in the chair next to the bed that was occupied by Taylor til he stood up and and made me take a seat, I reached my hand out and took Isaac's really hot hand in mine. "God mom, he is burning up, is he ok?" I asked Diana, she looked a little worried, but we remember when Kiley had this on the road too.
"Yeah, I am sure he is, I just think his body is telling him he needs to slow down and rest, if I know Isaac, he has probably not slept much since you went back to the states." She said to me, kissing my cheek.
Suddenly Isaac turned around squinting his eyes to look at me."Jade, is that you?" He whispered, I squeezed his hand tighter, knowing he is going to lecture me about being here.
"Yes, it is me hunny, I wanted to come here and take care of you like I should be." I told him as I felt a tear fall down my cheek.
"I told you not come out here hun, I don't want you guys getting sick, as it is I am worried Taylor and Zac are going to get it." He said, always worried about everyone else but himself.
"Ike, I wanted to be here, the boys are back in the states with Lucy, So you are stuck with me for a week to baby you, so just get used to it." I told him, leaning down to kiss his hot cheek.
"I love you Jade, thank you sweetie for being here for me." He said groggy sounding.
"I Love you too Ike, with all my heart, and there is not place I would rather be then here with you." I told him, I looked down and he was out again.
We all went out into the livingroom and shut the door so he could rest, we all sat around the table and drank coffee as Ezra and Brianna watched Sesame Street, dancing together, we had to laugh. Kiley was holding Matthew and feeding him.
We talked awhile longer, and we all decided it was time to go and get everyone settled in and put the kids down for their naps, so I decided to go climb into bed with my husband and snuggle with him.
~Zac~
We got back to the room and Matthew was already asleep so I got his crib set up and we laid him down, however the other one was not going to be so easy to get to lay down, she had me chasing her all over the room, I swear she has only been gone a couple weeks and she is faster then me, I think she has roller blades built into her little puma's! I was chasing her and she smacked right into my leg and fell back and bumped her head off the couch, well the biggest tears fell down her tiny face, and of course my heart ripped in two, I bent down to pick her up and pulled her into my chest, god I have missed her so much, she smelled so good, like strawberries. "I love you princess, I am sorry you bumped your head, show daddy where it hurts so I can kiss it make it better." I told her.
"Here, and here, and here." she kept pointing to spots on her head making me giggle but very happliy kissed each spot.She reached her little hands up and put them on each side of my face and pulling me down so that her little full lips were kissing mine. "I love you daddy, missed you." She totally made my heart feel like it was going to burst.
"Daddy missed you too Bri, I am so glad you are here with me for a week, what would you like to do? after your nap.." I had to throw that in, cause she would have gotten away with it.
"No nap DADDY pweeeasee." She released lots of those big tears from those big brown eyes, that was my doing, how could I resist her now?
"Zachary Walker Hanson, don't you even think about giving into her, she has you wraped right around her little finger, give her to me, she needs a nap or neither of us are going to be able to live with her tonight." She said smiliing and taking her from my arms, she was not about to let go of my neck, she was literly choking me. "Brianna Nichole Hanson, you let go of daddy right now or you are going to get punished." Kiley said to her, she stuck her tongue out at Kiley, I knew then that this had to be taken care of as adults, although the site of that little tongue hanging out her mouth made me want to run into the next room and just bust a gut laughing, but I knew it was time to be a daddy and make her mind and know that is something she don't do to her mom.
"Brianna, that is a no no, now let's go you have to take a nap or no Ice Cream for you later." I told her, but that didn't seem to infulence her either as she slapped me in the face, Ok this child was getting out of hand and now was making me a little angry, wow what and the hell was I suppose to do now, she is out of control.
"Brianna, just what do you think your doing hitting daddy? That is it, I took her from her mother and took her into her room and put her in her crib and shut the door and let her have her tantrum, I looked up at Kiley who's eyes were as big as saucers.
"What the hell did I just witness?" I asked her, pulling her into my arms, I was in total shock that was my little angel that I just put in that room.
"Zac, she has been doing that alot latly, I am not sure what is the matter with her, I think she might be mad cause your not at home all the time hun." She said to me, realizing she is probably right, but what can I do when there is this tour that we have to finish.
"God, I can't believe that is the same child that just a couple weeks ago was all loving to me, I am failing as a parent." I told her, tears were buring my eye lids, I was really feeling like a crappy parent right now.
"Oh Zac, she is going to go through these, just like Matthew will too, sweetie you are a very good daddy." She said reaching up and pulling my face down to hers and taking my lips into hers, god how I have missed my wifes lips.
~Taylor~
We got back to our room after going down to the resturant to get some lunch, we decided it was family nap time, but I think that Ezra was having thoughts of his own, he grabbed the remote and turned on the tv, my eyebrows lifted and I stood there with my arms folded across my chest watching him, thinking, how old was my son again? I giggled, and walked over to him. "Ezra, it is nap time my little man, and I know your going to get mad at daddy but you need a nap and so does mommy and daddy." I said to him scooping him up into my arms and blowing on his belly, he giggled and grabbed ahold of my hair with a death grip.
"Ouch Ezra, you gotta let go of the hair little guy." I told him, but he was not budging, well hello my son is turning into satan!
"Ez, let go of daddy's hair, that hurts." I pleaded with him, but he kept ahold of it, what the hell has gotten into this kid? My god I don't recognize him at all.
"Jordan Ezra Hanson you let go of my hair now or you are going to get a spanking." I told him, he finally loosend his grip.
He looked at me with his grey eyes, and they filled with tears. I don't know what just happened here it is like I have lost all control of my son.
"Jesus Christ Trish what has gotten into him? He became the kid from hell there, he was not going to let go of my hair!" I said to her.
"He misses you Taylor, that is how he is getting your attention." She said kissing my lips softly.
"Well god, he can have all my attention, but that is not the way to get it, lord he had a death grip on it I swear." I told her, pulling her into my chest. I noticed her giggling about this matter, I just smiled down at her.
I took Ez into his room and laid him down and covered him up, I looked at him and realized I was not there enough in his life, he is rebeling against me, this is making me feel aweful. I leaned down and kissed his cheek softly. "I love you Ez, please remember that daddy really does love you and hates not being there all the time." I said as I brushed my thumb across his cheek.
"I love you daddy and missed you much." He said to me, just them my chest tightened, and tears fell down my cheek, I am a terrible father, he is knowing I am not there for him all the time, and that makes me terrible. "Daddy has missed you to Ez, I am always going to be here for you my little man, daddy is sorry for letting you down." I told him, but I looked down and he was asleep with his little head on my lap. I ran my hand through his hair, leaning down to kiss the top of his head, realizing everything I am doing is for him when he gets older, he will never want for anything in his life. Then I sit and realize he is wanting for me! Is there any happy in between? I will find a way for him to always know that I am there for him and love him with all my heart!!!