Can't you see? sequel
Title: Never
Pairing: Yamachii
Genre: Angst/fluff
Rating: PG
Summary: After a long time Chinen decide to confess to Yamada, but something happen, will he do it at the end?.
This is a sequel of Can't you see?
Never give up if you still want to try
Never wipe your tears if you still want to cry
Never settle for and answer if you still want to know
Never say you don’t love him if you can’t let him go.
Author unknown
Chinen POV
Never give up if you still want to tryI was sitting under a tree in the schoolyard, watching the students walk and play at the distance. I would normally spend my lunch hour with Yamada and Yuto but today I really needed to think, so I make and excuse and escaped before they could ask too many questions.
It has been more than three years since we first meet. I still remember the sweet smile in your face when you approached me for the first time and ask me if everything was ok. I was nervous because I have just moved to Tokyo but having you there for me makes me feel more relaxed. I didn’t realize it at the time, but I’ve been in love with you since that moment when you smile at me.
I know It has been a long time… and trust me, I have try to make my hearth stop loving you but it doesn’t obeys to me anymore, I think it have a new master… you.
I’ve tried to say how I feel a countless times, I've confessed to you in front of everyone but you takes my confessions as jokes and just play along or transform them into fanservice. Do you know how that make me feel?
Maybe I shouldn’t be trying so hard, maybe I should just give up. I say to myself. But what if he feels the same? That little hope is what makes me keep loving you after all this time.
“He does treat me well” I say in a low voice trying to convince myself of that I may have a chance. But then his voice echoes in my head… Chinen. I feel that… he’s cute and he looks like a pet already. “It’s that so, Yama-chan? Is that the reason why you take care of me?” I heard the disappointment in my voice but shake it away. What should I do?
I sat for another couple of minutes before reaching a conclusion.
Yes, I’ll do it. I’ll confess to him one last time. I’ll make him understand that I’m not joking.
I start running to the school building looking for Yamada, when I finally get to our normal meeting place I stay frozen. There he was, but he wasn’t alone, there was a girl with him, the same girl he has called cute a week ago.
“So, Yamada-kun” she say timidly “would you go out with me?” she was looking to the floor, her face red as a tomato. I couldn’t say anything, I was frozen on my spot, then Yamada smile at her and I couldn’t take it anymore. I couldn’t stay there. I was afraid of what he was going to answer so I run just as he stared to talk.
I feel the hot tears rolling down my face, I feel my heart compressing in my chest. I was losing him, just because of my cowardice, because I couldn’t tell him my feelings.
I get to the school top, no students went there, it was technically off limits. I let myself fall to the ground and sit with my head between my knees. I could think clearly anymore I just cry, releasing all the pain I have keep in my heart.
Never wipe your tears if you still want to cry
I knew I didn’t have a reason to be crying, not really. I’m just his friend and I never really ask him to be my boyfriend but I can still feel sad, right?
I feel a hand on my shoulder and automatically look up to see who it was.
“Chii, are you ok?” Yuto was there looking at me worriedly.
“Yes” I answered moving my face to the side trying to get rid of my tears, but he took my hand and led it away from my face.
“You don’t have to wipe your tears, Chii. You don’t have to hide them from me. I know how you feel. You can cry as much as you want.”
My heart skips a beat.
“Wha… What do you mean?” I ask afraid that he may know the truth behind my tears.
“I know you like Yamada, Chii” he gives me a soft smile when my eye open full of surprise. “I’m with you two all the time, remember? School, work… I’ve seen how you look at him, I’ve see you blushing… and… It happened to me with Keito.
Yes, I remember how two months ago Yuto was in my same situation, the only difference was that he was brave and confessed to him.
“Wha… what can I do?” I cry.
“You should tell him, Chii”
“But… but” I replied but he interrupted me.
“I know you’re afraid, but you can’t stay like this” hi looked at me who was still crying. I buried my face in my knees while he sat beside me ruffling my hair.
“Just tell him, Chii” he say after a long time of silence just interrupted by my sobs. “You’ll feel better when you know his answer”
“I’ll try” I say after a minute. “I guess I really need to know”
Never settle for and answer if you still want to know
Now it was Monday morning, school day. I was really thinking about pretending to be sick and just stay at home, that way I wouldn’t have to see Yamada.
I haven’t seen him since then. I thought I could get over it in the weekend, but guess what? I was wrong.
The memory of last Friday keeps playing in my mind like a movie and all I could think about was of Yamada's answer to that girl's question. Even when I don’t see him he keeps torturing me.
I decide to go to school; after all I couldn’t stay home… the suspense of not knowing what really happened it’s driving me crazy.
School that day was hell on earth. As romantic relationships are banned from school, they weren’t going to publish they relationship if they have it, right? And I just couldn't bring myself to speak with Yamada and ask him.
He tried to speak to me, it seems like he wanted to tell me something, but I realized that if he tells me he has a girlfriend I could just start crying at any moment and he’ll find out about my feelings, so I just ignored him all day, giving lame excuses and running away somewhere else.
School ended and I still didn’t know his answer. That I’m just running away from the situation? Yes, I’m. But what else can I do? I’m frustrated and mad with myself for not been able of keep acting as if I haven’t heard anything that day. I’m the one who don’t want to lose his friendship after all.
I get my things and was going to leave school when suddenly I hear that voice, that voice I know so well, that voice I hear even in my dreams.
“Let go home together, Chii”
“No, thanks” I say in a cold voice and started walking to the front door.
He runs after me and pulled me from the arm to make me look at him.
“Yes?” I ask anger showing in my voice. I know none of this is his fault, it’s actually mine, but I was angry.
Haven’t you see I’ve been ignoring you all day.
“What’s the matter with you?” He looked concerned “You have been acting strange all day”
“No, I haven’t” I lied.
“Yes, you have”
“No, I haven’t”
“Yes, you have”
“NO, I HAVEN’T!!” why was I even screaming?
“Chii!!” he looked disconcerted “what happened?” he got closer to me.
He being co close make me get nervous, and I wasn’t able to think clearly anymore. Why do he even care anyway, was I really his pet?
“Do you really want to know?” I ask him firmly “Do you, Yamada?” I think he wasn’t sure anymore but now I didn’t care, I didn’t wait for him to answer and just continue.
“The problem? The problem is you; the problem is that I have loved you for more than three years, I’ve told you, but did you believe me? NO. I have always said my feelings, but did you care? NO. Do you really think it was all fanservice?” I stay silence for a moment looking to the ground before continuing more slowly.
“I just wanted to tell you how I feel, Maybe now you’ll believe me” Finally I look at his face, all I could see was surprise, he was like in shock.
“Gomen~” he say fast, getting out from the shock.
“I… I’m sorry. I won’t disturb you anymore” I hear my voice broke at the end of the sentence and ran away feeling the tears run down my face.
I have got rejected, just how I feared.
Yamada POV
Never say you don’t love him if you can’t let him go.
I stay there frozen, watching him run away from me, crying and suffering. I made him suffer.
And then I realize I didn’t want him to run away. I didn’t want him to cry.
Why do I feel like this? Why do I feel so bad watching him cry? Why do I feel the urge to run after him and hug him? It’s this because we are friends?
No, maybe… could it be…
I didn’t stay there to continue my thoughts. I ran, fast, faster than I ever have. I… I just didn’t want him to leave me.
I reached him and pull him from the arm. He turn around trying to wipe his tears.
“Chii”
“Yeah, I understand Yama-chan. You like that girl how confessed to you last Friday, right?”
“What?! Chii I…”
“Don’t worry I won’t tell you anything about this again”
“But…”
“Can we go back to been friends? Please, just pretend nothing of this happened” he was almost crying again. I couldn’t help but notice how cute he looked.
“I can’t do that” I say “we can’t just go back to being friends”
“I’m sorry” he say, pain reflecting in his face. He turning around and stared walking away, but I pulled him again, turning him around and pulling him into a tight hug.
“I love you too” I say. The words sounded so natural, so right, as if they were made for me to tell them to him.
He stopped crying and looked at me, hope showing in his eyes.
“Really?” he ask timidly, like if he maybe he has hear wrong.
“Yeah” I nodded “I didn’t know it until now, but now I’m sure. I love you”
He seemed happy and hugs me back, but suddenly his expression changed.
“But, what about the girl?” he ask
“I said no”
“But I saw you smiling” he replied. Who cares if I smiled with her?
“You’re talking too much” I say before closing the gaps between us and kiss him fully on the lips.
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When I post my first drabble some people ask me to make a continuation, well here it is! hope to not disappoint you. :D The quote I use for this fic is not mine but is my favorite.
Hope you like it. Comment please. ^.^
Pairing: Yamachii
Genre: Angst/fluff
Rating: PG
Summary: After a long time Chinen decide to confess to Yamada, but something happen, will he do it at the end?.
This is a sequel of Can't you see?
Never give up if you still want to try
Never wipe your tears if you still want to cry
Never settle for and answer if you still want to know
Never say you don’t love him if you can’t let him go.
Author unknown
Chinen POV
Never give up if you still want to tryI was sitting under a tree in the schoolyard, watching the students walk and play at the distance. I would normally spend my lunch hour with Yamada and Yuto but today I really needed to think, so I make and excuse and escaped before they could ask too many questions.
It has been more than three years since we first meet. I still remember the sweet smile in your face when you approached me for the first time and ask me if everything was ok. I was nervous because I have just moved to Tokyo but having you there for me makes me feel more relaxed. I didn’t realize it at the time, but I’ve been in love with you since that moment when you smile at me.
I know It has been a long time… and trust me, I have try to make my hearth stop loving you but it doesn’t obeys to me anymore, I think it have a new master… you.
I’ve tried to say how I feel a countless times, I've confessed to you in front of everyone but you takes my confessions as jokes and just play along or transform them into fanservice. Do you know how that make me feel?
Maybe I shouldn’t be trying so hard, maybe I should just give up. I say to myself. But what if he feels the same? That little hope is what makes me keep loving you after all this time.
“He does treat me well” I say in a low voice trying to convince myself of that I may have a chance. But then his voice echoes in my head… Chinen. I feel that… he’s cute and he looks like a pet already. “It’s that so, Yama-chan? Is that the reason why you take care of me?” I heard the disappointment in my voice but shake it away. What should I do?
I sat for another couple of minutes before reaching a conclusion.
Yes, I’ll do it. I’ll confess to him one last time. I’ll make him understand that I’m not joking.
I start running to the school building looking for Yamada, when I finally get to our normal meeting place I stay frozen. There he was, but he wasn’t alone, there was a girl with him, the same girl he has called cute a week ago.
“So, Yamada-kun” she say timidly “would you go out with me?” she was looking to the floor, her face red as a tomato. I couldn’t say anything, I was frozen on my spot, then Yamada smile at her and I couldn’t take it anymore. I couldn’t stay there. I was afraid of what he was going to answer so I run just as he stared to talk.
I feel the hot tears rolling down my face, I feel my heart compressing in my chest. I was losing him, just because of my cowardice, because I couldn’t tell him my feelings.
I get to the school top, no students went there, it was technically off limits. I let myself fall to the ground and sit with my head between my knees. I could think clearly anymore I just cry, releasing all the pain I have keep in my heart.
Never wipe your tears if you still want to cry
I knew I didn’t have a reason to be crying, not really. I’m just his friend and I never really ask him to be my boyfriend but I can still feel sad, right?
I feel a hand on my shoulder and automatically look up to see who it was.
“Chii, are you ok?” Yuto was there looking at me worriedly.
“Yes” I answered moving my face to the side trying to get rid of my tears, but he took my hand and led it away from my face.
“You don’t have to wipe your tears, Chii. You don’t have to hide them from me. I know how you feel. You can cry as much as you want.”
My heart skips a beat.
“Wha… What do you mean?” I ask afraid that he may know the truth behind my tears.
“I know you like Yamada, Chii” he gives me a soft smile when my eye open full of surprise. “I’m with you two all the time, remember? School, work… I’ve seen how you look at him, I’ve see you blushing… and… It happened to me with Keito.
Yes, I remember how two months ago Yuto was in my same situation, the only difference was that he was brave and confessed to him.
“Wha… what can I do?” I cry.
“You should tell him, Chii”
“But… but” I replied but he interrupted me.
“I know you’re afraid, but you can’t stay like this” hi looked at me who was still crying. I buried my face in my knees while he sat beside me ruffling my hair.
“Just tell him, Chii” he say after a long time of silence just interrupted by my sobs. “You’ll feel better when you know his answer”
“I’ll try” I say after a minute. “I guess I really need to know”
Never settle for and answer if you still want to know
Now it was Monday morning, school day. I was really thinking about pretending to be sick and just stay at home, that way I wouldn’t have to see Yamada.
I haven’t seen him since then. I thought I could get over it in the weekend, but guess what? I was wrong.
The memory of last Friday keeps playing in my mind like a movie and all I could think about was of Yamada's answer to that girl's question. Even when I don’t see him he keeps torturing me.
I decide to go to school; after all I couldn’t stay home… the suspense of not knowing what really happened it’s driving me crazy.
School that day was hell on earth. As romantic relationships are banned from school, they weren’t going to publish they relationship if they have it, right? And I just couldn't bring myself to speak with Yamada and ask him.
He tried to speak to me, it seems like he wanted to tell me something, but I realized that if he tells me he has a girlfriend I could just start crying at any moment and he’ll find out about my feelings, so I just ignored him all day, giving lame excuses and running away somewhere else.
School ended and I still didn’t know his answer. That I’m just running away from the situation? Yes, I’m. But what else can I do? I’m frustrated and mad with myself for not been able of keep acting as if I haven’t heard anything that day. I’m the one who don’t want to lose his friendship after all.
I get my things and was going to leave school when suddenly I hear that voice, that voice I know so well, that voice I hear even in my dreams.
“Let go home together, Chii”
“No, thanks” I say in a cold voice and started walking to the front door.
He runs after me and pulled me from the arm to make me look at him.
“Yes?” I ask anger showing in my voice. I know none of this is his fault, it’s actually mine, but I was angry.
Haven’t you see I’ve been ignoring you all day.
“What’s the matter with you?” He looked concerned “You have been acting strange all day”
“No, I haven’t” I lied.
“Yes, you have”
“No, I haven’t”
“Yes, you have”
“NO, I HAVEN’T!!” why was I even screaming?
“Chii!!” he looked disconcerted “what happened?” he got closer to me.
He being co close make me get nervous, and I wasn’t able to think clearly anymore. Why do he even care anyway, was I really his pet?
“Do you really want to know?” I ask him firmly “Do you, Yamada?” I think he wasn’t sure anymore but now I didn’t care, I didn’t wait for him to answer and just continue.
“The problem? The problem is you; the problem is that I have loved you for more than three years, I’ve told you, but did you believe me? NO. I have always said my feelings, but did you care? NO. Do you really think it was all fanservice?” I stay silence for a moment looking to the ground before continuing more slowly.
“I just wanted to tell you how I feel, Maybe now you’ll believe me” Finally I look at his face, all I could see was surprise, he was like in shock.
“Gomen~” he say fast, getting out from the shock.
“I… I’m sorry. I won’t disturb you anymore” I hear my voice broke at the end of the sentence and ran away feeling the tears run down my face.
I have got rejected, just how I feared.
Yamada POV
Never say you don’t love him if you can’t let him go.
I stay there frozen, watching him run away from me, crying and suffering. I made him suffer.
And then I realize I didn’t want him to run away. I didn’t want him to cry.
Why do I feel like this? Why do I feel so bad watching him cry? Why do I feel the urge to run after him and hug him? It’s this because we are friends?
No, maybe… could it be…
I didn’t stay there to continue my thoughts. I ran, fast, faster than I ever have. I… I just didn’t want him to leave me.
I reached him and pull him from the arm. He turn around trying to wipe his tears.
“Chii”
“Yeah, I understand Yama-chan. You like that girl how confessed to you last Friday, right?”
“What?! Chii I…”
“Don’t worry I won’t tell you anything about this again”
“But…”
“Can we go back to been friends? Please, just pretend nothing of this happened” he was almost crying again. I couldn’t help but notice how cute he looked.
“I can’t do that” I say “we can’t just go back to being friends”
“I’m sorry” he say, pain reflecting in his face. He turning around and stared walking away, but I pulled him again, turning him around and pulling him into a tight hug.
“I love you too” I say. The words sounded so natural, so right, as if they were made for me to tell them to him.
He stopped crying and looked at me, hope showing in his eyes.
“Really?” he ask timidly, like if he maybe he has hear wrong.
“Yeah” I nodded “I didn’t know it until now, but now I’m sure. I love you”
He seemed happy and hugs me back, but suddenly his expression changed.
“But, what about the girl?” he ask
“I said no”
“But I saw you smiling” he replied. Who cares if I smiled with her?
“You’re talking too much” I say before closing the gaps between us and kiss him fully on the lips.
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When I post my first drabble some people ask me to make a continuation, well here it is! hope to not disappoint you. :D The quote I use for this fic is not mine but is my favorite.
Hope you like it. Comment please. ^.^