hey there update
so hey livejournal, how ya been??
good thing i havent updated since may, sweet deal. but gey BG wont let us access myspace from school anymore because they are going on and looking at everyones in our school. hay much? I THINK SO. so yea a lot has changed..
junior year, there is soooo much work and its so demanding. its crazy but im managing. i dont think patty is gunna be too pleased with report cards, but shes pcychotic so its goood. anyways soccer have been amazing! we had our senior game yesterday...well...for the seniors that is, and we got them the best presents EVER!!! we gotthem picture frames and pants that we had screened with SENIORS on the bum bum.. and they look aodrable and their all wearing them today and its soooooo awesome. im glad they liked them :0)...but we ended up losing to pinkerton 2-1, and it was a decent game, but it sucked to end the season on a bad note, but playoffs are here and we are in 3rd place i believe, which is pretty sweet!!
phantoms soccer has been pretty good to... we made it to NATIONALS and we leave the 17th and come home on the 23rd. YAYY...im rooomin with keating too and its gunna be wikid sweet. late night ben n jerry runs for suree guyyyyyy !!!! im so pumped to see my team again i LOVE thoes girls!!
well..lets talk about boys.. boys boys boys..... well....i figure out how i work...kinda....i need to not get so involved. when i start dating a guy, i give up my heart wayy to easily, and i only ended up geting hurt in the end. i put so much effort into making it work and i need to not do that. but i cant, im notthat kind of person. im such a softie. like example, if a guy treats e bad, like doesnt talk to me or ignores me, i get really down on myself and i get sad, but i dont do anything about it, like get mad at him, yea ill be irritated but i would never do anything to harm the relationship....and i should. i mean i took action in this past relationship with kevin, cuz it got to the point where he was being an asshole. so i confronted him about it and tried to tlak it over, and we had a mutual split. but still i shouldnt allow that to happen to me. i dont need it be treated like that because i think im a nice person and im not really mean whatsoever, but hey thats just my standpoint.
In relation to not breaking apart a relatinship if somehting annoys me, i need to get over it. i was so proud of myself with the thing with kevin, breaking it off cuz i didnt deserve it, but then again ive thought about how i somewhat regret it. this is because i have one fear that i need to get over. my fear is being ALONE. i dont know why, im a cougageous person, and ill go somewhere by myself and do something alone, its not that end of it. my issue with aloneness is that i need someone to fall back on. ofcoause i have christine, geoff, greg, jon, lau and all my other friends that mean the absolute world to me. but then theres that aspect of having someone care for you like that. that warm sensation of having somone hold you when your sad or lonely. they fill that spot and theres no better feeling in the world. i love having the feeling of completion and that someones going to catch me when i fall.. theres a metaphor for ya lol. i dont kno
its hard becasue when i need that feeling or want it, it seems like its never going to come. i love being in relationships. i love being committed and doing things for that person and spoiling them to the fullest. and just being there as a support, something more than a friend, something that means something to that special someone and that i have a place in their heart. i dont know, call me crazy, but i miss it. im not desperate or anything crazy like that. im not pushing for a relationship either...wel... haha but i miss it, and if somehting comes along im going to take full advantage of it. i just hope mr. right comes soon, cuz i would like something like that these days..
maybe im asking for too much. i just would like someone who will care about me in that respect. i just hope that fate throws me a good pitch, and that i can knock it out of the park :0)
for now, tahlor
good thing i havent updated since may, sweet deal. but gey BG wont let us access myspace from school anymore because they are going on and looking at everyones in our school. hay much? I THINK SO. so yea a lot has changed..
junior year, there is soooo much work and its so demanding. its crazy but im managing. i dont think patty is gunna be too pleased with report cards, but shes pcychotic so its goood. anyways soccer have been amazing! we had our senior game yesterday...well...for the seniors that is, and we got them the best presents EVER!!! we gotthem picture frames and pants that we had screened with SENIORS on the bum bum.. and they look aodrable and their all wearing them today and its soooooo awesome. im glad they liked them :0)...but we ended up losing to pinkerton 2-1, and it was a decent game, but it sucked to end the season on a bad note, but playoffs are here and we are in 3rd place i believe, which is pretty sweet!!
phantoms soccer has been pretty good to... we made it to NATIONALS and we leave the 17th and come home on the 23rd. YAYY...im rooomin with keating too and its gunna be wikid sweet. late night ben n jerry runs for suree guyyyyyy !!!! im so pumped to see my team again i LOVE thoes girls!!
well..lets talk about boys.. boys boys boys..... well....i figure out how i work...kinda....i need to not get so involved. when i start dating a guy, i give up my heart wayy to easily, and i only ended up geting hurt in the end. i put so much effort into making it work and i need to not do that. but i cant, im notthat kind of person. im such a softie. like example, if a guy treats e bad, like doesnt talk to me or ignores me, i get really down on myself and i get sad, but i dont do anything about it, like get mad at him, yea ill be irritated but i would never do anything to harm the relationship....and i should. i mean i took action in this past relationship with kevin, cuz it got to the point where he was being an asshole. so i confronted him about it and tried to tlak it over, and we had a mutual split. but still i shouldnt allow that to happen to me. i dont need it be treated like that because i think im a nice person and im not really mean whatsoever, but hey thats just my standpoint.
In relation to not breaking apart a relatinship if somehting annoys me, i need to get over it. i was so proud of myself with the thing with kevin, breaking it off cuz i didnt deserve it, but then again ive thought about how i somewhat regret it. this is because i have one fear that i need to get over. my fear is being ALONE. i dont know why, im a cougageous person, and ill go somewhere by myself and do something alone, its not that end of it. my issue with aloneness is that i need someone to fall back on. ofcoause i have christine, geoff, greg, jon, lau and all my other friends that mean the absolute world to me. but then theres that aspect of having someone care for you like that. that warm sensation of having somone hold you when your sad or lonely. they fill that spot and theres no better feeling in the world. i love having the feeling of completion and that someones going to catch me when i fall.. theres a metaphor for ya lol. i dont kno
its hard becasue when i need that feeling or want it, it seems like its never going to come. i love being in relationships. i love being committed and doing things for that person and spoiling them to the fullest. and just being there as a support, something more than a friend, something that means something to that special someone and that i have a place in their heart. i dont know, call me crazy, but i miss it. im not desperate or anything crazy like that. im not pushing for a relationship either...wel... haha but i miss it, and if somehting comes along im going to take full advantage of it. i just hope mr. right comes soon, cuz i would like something like that these days..
maybe im asking for too much. i just would like someone who will care about me in that respect. i just hope that fate throws me a good pitch, and that i can knock it out of the park :0)
for now, tahlor