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[tawny918]

For no reason whatsoever, I am in seriously one of the worst moods I've been in for a really long time. I just wanna growl at everything very indimidatingly and throw things around ineffectually and burst into tears spontaneously. Rawr. I mean seriously. Rawr

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[amusingly_odd]

Oh, silly face. I still have yet to finish your story because I have the attention span of an ant with little attention span (incoherency! yippee!). But. Oh MAN. I will link you to an entry that perfectly sums up my freakish disgust of my writing skillz lately that perhaps is similar to what you are feeling. I think our inability to write and write with perfectly oblivious joy is because we are Growing Older and Wise. And thus, I doubt doubt doubt everything I start writing/used to write/have vague and unpolished thoughts about writing. Oh time, why you gotta make me this way?

[amusingly_odd]

Oh oops. There is a line of questionable content in it. Ah well.

Here is the link:
http://dorkorific.livejournal.com/69988.html

[tawny918]

Dude. That's creepy. That's EXACTLY how I feel. I'm just ridiculously frustrated because I feel like I used to be good and now I suck but I have just enough good left in me that I KNOW I suck but I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIX IT. Rawr. Seriously. Rawr.

[tawny918]

Totally didn't mean to repeat myself there. The whole Rawr Seriously Rawr thing. Apparently I say that quite a lot.

[amusingly_odd]

See for me, that's not exactly it. For me, I feel like I used to be so unbelievably crappy at writing but I was so blissfully unaware of this once upon a time, that I would write and write all the time anyway, and sometimes this writing would actually be good, and I would kind of sit back and look at it and be like "yeeeeaaaah. this is exactly the kind of writer i am ALL THE FREAKING TIME."

But now before I even start to write, I'm like "oh god. what if i write another crapfest? i won't be able to LIVE with myself anymore!" And I'm also like "oh man, but i need to write this scene in, and i need to write this plot so i could write that scene in, and i need to add this character, so i could write that other part in, and i have to write this thing in too so i can use those ten-million-dollar words, and it will all come together to make me a freaking artisteBut then all those things really don't work together because i'm trying so hard to make it all so artsy and intelligent and worthy of my age, that i forget to write for just the joy

[tawny918]

I just have all these amazing stories inside my head, but as soon as I open up a blank word document and prepare to write it, the words just shrivel up in my brain and absolutely nothing does justice to what I actually see in my head.

Maybe I should write screenplays?

[amusingly_odd]

See, for me, I have SUCH a massive issue with writing backgrounds and details. I can write dialogue. Barely. But I cannot for the life of me describe a scene. I can narrate just fine, with little witty descriptions of the situation and the people and etc. But my people are constantly FLOATING around in space because they seem to never be walking or existing anywhere because I cannot describe real situations! I totally just want to direct a movie. That would so completely be easier. I could just make the scene then, instead of describe it on paper. I just don't look and observe enough of my surroundings to be able to describe actual differences between places and people. I am so unobservant! It is a terrible and frustrating curse! Also, I am apparently incoherent when it comes to speaking of this curse. Woe.

[tawny918]

I would LOVE to be a director... that's what I used to want to be when I was younger. But I tried to write a screenplay... you know, just dialogue, not too tough, you'd think. But its HARD. At least for me. It was a lot harder than I thought it would be.

We totally should write a book together. I can describe everything and you can write witty dialogue (which I am completely--as you've seen from my book--incapable of).

[amusingly_odd]

OKAY. omg! what should we write about!

[tawny918]

Fairies and unicorns?

(Aka: I have no idea.)

[amusingly_odd]

Pink unicorns?!! Let us get together today and talk about it!