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here i am again.
shevonne is upset today...shes stressed about boys and money and her weight. SHE IS NOT FAT and i keep trying to tell her that but she is stubborn and wants to lose 4 kilos. It shits me off cos i dont think she needs to lose weight but she thinks she is ugly when she is obviously gorgeous and argh!!!
last night was pretty un-eventful. Shevonne and Brendan and I watched DVD's and then went to bed. The night before, Brendan bought us a bottle of vodka which we now have sitting proudly on a table in mine and shev's shared room next to a near empty bottle of midori.
i want to write. i want to paint. i want to draw. i want to act and be onstage. none of it seems to be working at the moment. all my creative juices seem to be trickling out of me with nowhere to go. i keep picking up my pencils and end up scribbling on my sketchpad and getting frustrated.
i need to go and straighten my hair and put makeup on. we're going out tonight to get drunk, dance and pick up every guy in sight :P
i just know that im gonna end up coming home and sleeping with Brendan again. it seems to have become a ritual now - everytime we get smashed we end up sleeping together :\
lol!!
shevonne is upset today...shes stressed about boys and money and her weight. SHE IS NOT FAT and i keep trying to tell her that but she is stubborn and wants to lose 4 kilos. It shits me off cos i dont think she needs to lose weight but she thinks she is ugly when she is obviously gorgeous and argh!!!
last night was pretty un-eventful. Shevonne and Brendan and I watched DVD's and then went to bed. The night before, Brendan bought us a bottle of vodka which we now have sitting proudly on a table in mine and shev's shared room next to a near empty bottle of midori.
i want to write. i want to paint. i want to draw. i want to act and be onstage. none of it seems to be working at the moment. all my creative juices seem to be trickling out of me with nowhere to go. i keep picking up my pencils and end up scribbling on my sketchpad and getting frustrated.
i need to go and straighten my hair and put makeup on. we're going out tonight to get drunk, dance and pick up every guy in sight :P
i just know that im gonna end up coming home and sleeping with Brendan again. it seems to have become a ritual now - everytime we get smashed we end up sleeping together :\
lol!!