my life is brilliant...
I figure that I should update. I guess I just feel like it, need to put it on paper.
It's exactly 1 month to the day that I officially no longer attend this school, and now I have a group of friends, now I feel somewhat attractive on good days, now I'm broke and not too sad about it, and now I finally feel like I fit in. It's kind of bizarre how everything seems to be clicking for me near the end. I feel like everyone is in a rush to get older. I don't understand what's wrong with being an 18 year old girl and having fun. I don't understand the rush to get a fake( i know its convenient, but really not worth a lot of money), or to date the older guy(if you are reading this and think it pertains to you, it does, and all the rest of my friends), or the desire to just sever all familial ties and get out on your own. I want to enjoy what time I have left being in High School and being young. It's going to pass us all quicker than we know, so why not cherish what's left. There's enough time to do all of that later. I guess because it's finally hitting me that I'm going to be leaving a very very comfortable comfort zone, that I should appreciate all that's in front of me. Becuase in a matter of days, it won't be here anymore.
So- I'm done having bad days, and I'm going to enjoy obsessing over stupid shit, and I'm going to love talkign about nothing with my friends, and I'm going to enjoy having no real worries, because this is my time. And best believe i'ma live it up.
It's exactly 1 month to the day that I officially no longer attend this school, and now I have a group of friends, now I feel somewhat attractive on good days, now I'm broke and not too sad about it, and now I finally feel like I fit in. It's kind of bizarre how everything seems to be clicking for me near the end. I feel like everyone is in a rush to get older. I don't understand what's wrong with being an 18 year old girl and having fun. I don't understand the rush to get a fake( i know its convenient, but really not worth a lot of money), or to date the older guy(if you are reading this and think it pertains to you, it does, and all the rest of my friends), or the desire to just sever all familial ties and get out on your own. I want to enjoy what time I have left being in High School and being young. It's going to pass us all quicker than we know, so why not cherish what's left. There's enough time to do all of that later. I guess because it's finally hitting me that I'm going to be leaving a very very comfortable comfort zone, that I should appreciate all that's in front of me. Becuase in a matter of days, it won't be here anymore.
So- I'm done having bad days, and I'm going to enjoy obsessing over stupid shit, and I'm going to love talkign about nothing with my friends, and I'm going to enjoy having no real worries, because this is my time. And best believe i'ma live it up.