May 07, 2008 13:28
*sigh*
school is almost over. well not almost, but i like to think it is almost. in two weeks i am going back home. too long. this is the last FULL week of school though. i have a lot of studying to do for finals, but i have a lot of time to study, so i'm not all that worried. if i don't procrastinate, it should all turn out well. i am upset at the governor because of the budget cuts. they are getting rid of so many language classes, its ridiculous. get your parents to write to him and tell him how much of an asshole he is!
i'm worried about summer. i'm worried about awkwardness and i'm worried everyone up here will forget about me. i want school to be over, but i am scared to go back home. i'm not sure what is going to happen, and that makes me uneasy for some reason. usually i don't mind, but there has been such a falling out lately with everyone i know (not everyone, but you get the point) that i don't know how things are going to be. i guess i just have to hope for the best, and keep being me. ugh. i hate the fact that its hard for me to be optimistic about it.
i need to write a paper for tomorrow. 7 pages. it should flow once i start writing, but starting is the hardest part. i neeeed to get an A on this paper, too. and on the final for that class. if i get a B, i'm going to be super ticked off.
my life is complicated. and difficult. i think that i like to think its easier than it is, so that i don't get stressed out. there must be a light at the end of the tunnel somewhere, but right now that doesn't look very close.
i met this new guy brendan and i'm not sure if i can trust him or not. i think he's stalking me. its kind of a friend with benefits thing, but not really. im kind of glad to be getting away from him this summer.
hopefully everything will turn out well.
my brother's 21st birthday is soon. alcohol!
please let these two weeks pass quickly. finals are so painful. like, gag me with a spork.