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My little sister lost her boyfriend a few days ago. He wasn't wearing his life jacket when he went out canoeing up North. There was storm and he didn't know how to swim. His boat capsized...
I can't even imagine what she's going through right now. They would have been celebrating their one year anniversary together when he got back. My parents don't know she was dating anybody. We just told them that her close friend from school passed away. My older sister was the only other one in the family that met him. I wish I had gotten to meet him while I still had the chance. I wish I could find a way to take all the pain my little sister feels. It feels like she always draws the short end of the stick. She's been through more than anyone else I know. But she's also one of the strongest people that I know because of it.
When we're young we tend to think that time is on our side. We don't live our lives as if it were about to end. I wonder how our actions would change if we didn't think this way. I wonder if we'd find a new sense of bravery and aim to accomplish all the things we were too afraid to do, or if we'd use that newly found awareness of our own mortality as justification for falling into a state of disregard for everything around us. I wish I could say that I could fall into the former category. However, I haven't been doing all the things that I could be doing with my time. For now, I'm still grateful for every extra minute that I'm given.
I can't even imagine what she's going through right now. They would have been celebrating their one year anniversary together when he got back. My parents don't know she was dating anybody. We just told them that her close friend from school passed away. My older sister was the only other one in the family that met him. I wish I had gotten to meet him while I still had the chance. I wish I could find a way to take all the pain my little sister feels. It feels like she always draws the short end of the stick. She's been through more than anyone else I know. But she's also one of the strongest people that I know because of it.
When we're young we tend to think that time is on our side. We don't live our lives as if it were about to end. I wonder how our actions would change if we didn't think this way. I wonder if we'd find a new sense of bravery and aim to accomplish all the things we were too afraid to do, or if we'd use that newly found awareness of our own mortality as justification for falling into a state of disregard for everything around us. I wish I could say that I could fall into the former category. However, I haven't been doing all the things that I could be doing with my time. For now, I'm still grateful for every extra minute that I'm given.