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I graduated from university yesterday. Everybody kept congratulating me. Somehow I didn't really feel like I deserved to be congratulated, I mean graduating university isn't really that big of a deal these days. I would feel like I achieved something if I had employers offering me a full time job or something. I didn't graduate with any honours or awards. It's been several years since I've considered myself smart. I still have terrible time management skills. I felt like I just scraped by to get that degree. I was constantly doing things at the last minute. I slacked off a lot of the time.
That's what I thought at first. But I realized I was wrong. I do have terrible time management skills and I do constantly procrastinate and leave things until the last minute, but that doesn't mean that I didn't work incredibly hard. I know there were so many times where I struggled and doubted myself. But I surprised myself a lot of time. I kept trying to push myself out of my comfort zone. I became involved with the Science Society in my first year, I helped out with so many events around campus, I was hired over more than 70 other students for a co-op job and my boss for that job ended up telling me I was her favourite co-op student, I was a frosh leader and helped create our somewhat iconic team cheer, I was a residence life don, I was a science ambassador... the list goes on. I really did so much more than I ever could have dreamed of. I never thought of myself as a leader or a person that could make a big impact in other people's lives but now I know that I am. I did do lot of stuff that warrants congratulatory sentiments.
I really loved my time at my school. I know it wasn't perfect. I know there are a lot of things I could have done differently. There were a lot of people whose paths I crossed briefly and wished I could have crossed more often. But whenever I was on campus I knew I would always run into somebody I knew. I had taken the time to get to know the people around me. On my graduation day I wasn't recalling all the nights I felt overwhelmed with assignments and deadlines or the nights before final exams where I scrambled to cram in as information into my head as I could, I remembered all the fun times I had. I remembered the friends I had made and the random adventures we had together. I had so much help along the way. I am such a very fortunately person. University definitely isn't easy. But somehow when it was all behind me, it felt so.
That's what I thought at first. But I realized I was wrong. I do have terrible time management skills and I do constantly procrastinate and leave things until the last minute, but that doesn't mean that I didn't work incredibly hard. I know there were so many times where I struggled and doubted myself. But I surprised myself a lot of time. I kept trying to push myself out of my comfort zone. I became involved with the Science Society in my first year, I helped out with so many events around campus, I was hired over more than 70 other students for a co-op job and my boss for that job ended up telling me I was her favourite co-op student, I was a frosh leader and helped create our somewhat iconic team cheer, I was a residence life don, I was a science ambassador... the list goes on. I really did so much more than I ever could have dreamed of. I never thought of myself as a leader or a person that could make a big impact in other people's lives but now I know that I am. I did do lot of stuff that warrants congratulatory sentiments.
I really loved my time at my school. I know it wasn't perfect. I know there are a lot of things I could have done differently. There were a lot of people whose paths I crossed briefly and wished I could have crossed more often. But whenever I was on campus I knew I would always run into somebody I knew. I had taken the time to get to know the people around me. On my graduation day I wasn't recalling all the nights I felt overwhelmed with assignments and deadlines or the nights before final exams where I scrambled to cram in as information into my head as I could, I remembered all the fun times I had. I remembered the friends I had made and the random adventures we had together. I had so much help along the way. I am such a very fortunately person. University definitely isn't easy. But somehow when it was all behind me, it felt so.