A tightness in the chest
I had been laying bed and tearing up just a little. I'm not supposed to cry for goodbyes. My roommate's stuff is packed downstairs. She'll be back tomorrow to take it and move out for good. My other roommate moved out a few days ago. So I'll be staying alone in this house until my new roommates move in in September. Everyone else from school is gone too because exams for this term are done. I still have to finish my co-op term so I have to stay. I was the first to move into this house though and I had been alone for a few days then too. But that was just a few days, this time it'll be two weeks. But I didn't have internet the first time so if I could get through that I can probably get through anything.
If I had known my roommates personalities and habits beforehand, there's probably no way I would have agreed to live with them. But that's the thing about signing a lease for a house on your own: it's like a box of chocolates. (You never know what you're going to get.) You just have to make the best of it. It's kind of hard to believe that if I had signed for any other house and moved in with any other people, my year would have been completely different. A lot of the friends I met, the places I went, the fun times I had, the lessons I learned, was because of them. I really lucked out. Even with all those times we got on each other's nerves.
I watched a lot of television when I was younger, which really helped me prepare for moments like this. I had to learn early on that things (tv shows) you really cared about could be over before you knew it. Of course you were sad about it, but it was better that it ended while you still enjoyed it. As opposed to those things (tv shows) that dragged on for too many seasons and got too contrived and frustrating to watch. There'd always be new shows that would come around though, with new loveable characters and new exciting adventures. So that's why endings shouldn't be sad. It's never really over anyway. There are dvds and episode summaries and youtube clips. It's the same with life. I'll let myself be a little sad as I wait for the new series to come on the air, whether it be a comedy or a drama or something entirely different altogether.
If I had known my roommates personalities and habits beforehand, there's probably no way I would have agreed to live with them. But that's the thing about signing a lease for a house on your own: it's like a box of chocolates. (You never know what you're going to get.) You just have to make the best of it. It's kind of hard to believe that if I had signed for any other house and moved in with any other people, my year would have been completely different. A lot of the friends I met, the places I went, the fun times I had, the lessons I learned, was because of them. I really lucked out. Even with all those times we got on each other's nerves.
I watched a lot of television when I was younger, which really helped me prepare for moments like this. I had to learn early on that things (tv shows) you really cared about could be over before you knew it. Of course you were sad about it, but it was better that it ended while you still enjoyed it. As opposed to those things (tv shows) that dragged on for too many seasons and got too contrived and frustrating to watch. There'd always be new shows that would come around though, with new loveable characters and new exciting adventures. So that's why endings shouldn't be sad. It's never really over anyway. There are dvds and episode summaries and youtube clips. It's the same with life. I'll let myself be a little sad as I wait for the new series to come on the air, whether it be a comedy or a drama or something entirely different altogether.