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Today was the first Sunday I haven't gone to church sence I started going to church again. I didnt feel well at all this morning, and it was hard for me to walk. I still wanted to go to church but Tracy didnt wake me back up, she figured it was better for me to rest. Now I just have to wait until Wednesday and I will feel better about church. Its just been a long day. And I have felt like shit all day. Its so aweful, I hate it so much.
I dont feel like talking to anyone right now and I dont know why. I just have times like this when I just want to be alone. Even Bill is no exception, but he thinks I just dont want to talk to him. I feel really bad that he thinks this, but I cant help the way I feel. When I feel like he is hurting or bothered by something, I feel really bad and it hurts me. Usually if he cries, I cry, if he's down, I'm usually down, if he's happy, I'm happy (even when it doesnt seem it). Thinking of him and when I'll get to talk to him again is the only thing that has been getting me through the day. I'm so blessed to have him as my boyfriend and my bestfriend. He puts up with so much from me and I dont know how he can do it. Sometimes I can be so hateful toward him. I'm just glad we have been able to make it through everything.
I got to talk to my mom today for like 15 minutes (tear) wish I could have talked to her for a little longer. I miss her so much. I'm really glad that she is still such I big factor in my life. I dont know what I would do without her.
Well other than school not being that great and things being kind of crazy around here, my life is just as boring as ever. So I dont really have anything to put in here for today.
****Bill, I did really like that poem. You are the sweetest guy I've ever known and I love you very very very much. Thank you for being in my life and doing so much for me.
I dont feel like talking to anyone right now and I dont know why. I just have times like this when I just want to be alone. Even Bill is no exception, but he thinks I just dont want to talk to him. I feel really bad that he thinks this, but I cant help the way I feel. When I feel like he is hurting or bothered by something, I feel really bad and it hurts me. Usually if he cries, I cry, if he's down, I'm usually down, if he's happy, I'm happy (even when it doesnt seem it). Thinking of him and when I'll get to talk to him again is the only thing that has been getting me through the day. I'm so blessed to have him as my boyfriend and my bestfriend. He puts up with so much from me and I dont know how he can do it. Sometimes I can be so hateful toward him. I'm just glad we have been able to make it through everything.
I got to talk to my mom today for like 15 minutes (tear) wish I could have talked to her for a little longer. I miss her so much. I'm really glad that she is still such I big factor in my life. I dont know what I would do without her.
Well other than school not being that great and things being kind of crazy around here, my life is just as boring as ever. So I dont really have anything to put in here for today.
****Bill, I did really like that poem. You are the sweetest guy I've ever known and I love you very very very much. Thank you for being in my life and doing so much for me.