I need you right here right now.
So yeah. lemme tell you about ma weekend so far.
Friday- Skool. After skool, beefy and her momma picked me up and brought me to my house to git clothes. Went back to beefy's...her mom tweeked coz she was late for work. Mom left for chicopee. :0)! House To OURSELVES! WOOTS! yeah it is always fun when me and beefy have the house to ourselves lol we always manage to git in trouble tho. LOL. okay. She cut and dyed my hair. Eek, so yeah it is shorter not by much and Purple... it's called "Pimpin' Purple" haha aint that great? yeah i noe lol. It was quite fun.
Saturday- Woke up late. sat around. had breakfast. got screamed at. gah. had to clean some stuff. Went to blockbuster... got millions of movies. Rented 3 bought like 1010101010983029574328! lol. went home. mom left for work around 5-6. was late as usual. went online for a while. talked to uh.. idk wut to refer to her as. jay jay. man i missed her. gah. yeah okay well....we watched the movies her rented... whic were :Love The Hard Way, Honey, and Thirteen. (i already saw Thirteen with pipster but beefy hasnt seen it so we got it)..stayed up a little too late. ate popkorn. umm. wutelse. I LOVED LOVE THE HARD WAY. it was a GREAT movie!! Eek. lol. It was absolutly wonderful.
Okay someone just turned off da lites. lala. lol it was shane and jon. assholes. lalalala. okay well yeah. on to the next day which is today!!
Sunday!!!!! aka today!!!- okay woots. got up late. too late. lalala. got up got dressed rushed around. lala. ate breakfast in the car...dunkin donuts. haha...went thru so.hadley. alomst cried coz i coudlnt see jay. haha. up in uhh i dont member where but Beefy's Latte flipped ou of the holder and all over her momma and the stereo!! omg it was FUNNI AS HELL! w00ts!!!!!!!!! okay yeah went tag saling all day. got jay jay a little stuffed aminal. woot it is very cute. got Edward Scissor Hands VHS. and two picture frames. :0). made me essided. ^.^!
RIGHT NOW: jon and shane and beefy are all in beefy's bed. heh. this is bad. i am like a cupple feet away. ack. shane is asking me questions. lol earlier he asked me "do you have a freckle on your left boob" lol amazingly i do. lol haha i told them no. A.) because they would ask to see it. and B.) they dont need to noe that. so bleh. you lose!!
Talking to Jay jay...feeling suddenly overwhelmed.
jesus. i didnt noe so much liquid could leave my body thru my tear ducts. ack. i need this person in ma life. i cant leave her.ahhhhhhhh i am going crazy without her. <333333
"When I cant hold you in ma arms, I hold you in ma heart"
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^I need you.
A song from <3333....
"i feel like this wont go away
no matter how hard i try to
squeeze my eyes shut so i cant see
the pain in you this pain in me
but everything that i can
say to you wont help you
everything you need is right
in front of you just take it
i know i am really not here
to represent what i am not clear
about in my head sometimes i feel
fucked up just like you do like you do
try to make it through the daily pain that you feel
maybe tomorrow wont be so bad
i know it cause i once felt
that way nothing i could say
made it go away i lived though this
i stll feel this i just live for my tomorrow
just make it go away she makes it go away"--Staind.
okay yeah before i get really mad. i am gunna wrap this up.
Beckett was just right behind me
heh. gah shane and jon are queer. we are talking about infedelity. lol. oh no. shane sed red and huge. omg. wut is going on here???? AHHHH PORNOGRAPHY!!!!!!!!!! AKKKKK!!!
waka waka. hoochie mamma! lolness. okay this is so weird i am partically in tears [again] and beefy is being groped haha. this is so backwards. okay yeah just coz imma slut doesnt mean nuddin. lol i'm not i would never do anything with someone i would not date.
shane and jon just left. :0) gawsh finally some peace.
"Walking the dark side of the moon was not the worst part"
"Wut was?"
"Doing it alone"
[from the movie "Love the hard way"]
:0(.okay before i pour my heart out i'm going to leave.
so yeah. my weekend was great until like right now.
-<3- My. Last. Goodbye.-<3-
`suicide notes and butterfly kisses.
I cant leave this world without you.
I love you. I love you.
This is me. Okay, this is me.
HEAD OVER FUCKING HEELS.
-<3-X0X0IWILLNEVERLEAVEYOUX0X0-<3-
Friday- Skool. After skool, beefy and her momma picked me up and brought me to my house to git clothes. Went back to beefy's...her mom tweeked coz she was late for work. Mom left for chicopee. :0)! House To OURSELVES! WOOTS! yeah it is always fun when me and beefy have the house to ourselves lol we always manage to git in trouble tho. LOL. okay. She cut and dyed my hair. Eek, so yeah it is shorter not by much and Purple... it's called "Pimpin' Purple" haha aint that great? yeah i noe lol. It was quite fun.
Saturday- Woke up late. sat around. had breakfast. got screamed at. gah. had to clean some stuff. Went to blockbuster... got millions of movies. Rented 3 bought like 1010101010983029574328! lol. went home. mom left for work around 5-6. was late as usual. went online for a while. talked to uh.. idk wut to refer to her as. jay jay. man i missed her. gah. yeah okay well....we watched the movies her rented... whic were :Love The Hard Way, Honey, and Thirteen. (i already saw Thirteen with pipster but beefy hasnt seen it so we got it)..stayed up a little too late. ate popkorn. umm. wutelse. I LOVED LOVE THE HARD WAY. it was a GREAT movie!! Eek. lol. It was absolutly wonderful.
Okay someone just turned off da lites. lala. lol it was shane and jon. assholes. lalalala. okay well yeah. on to the next day which is today!!
Sunday!!!!! aka today!!!- okay woots. got up late. too late. lalala. got up got dressed rushed around. lala. ate breakfast in the car...dunkin donuts. haha...went thru so.hadley. alomst cried coz i coudlnt see jay. haha. up in uhh i dont member where but Beefy's Latte flipped ou of the holder and all over her momma and the stereo!! omg it was FUNNI AS HELL! w00ts!!!!!!!!! okay yeah went tag saling all day. got jay jay a little stuffed aminal. woot it is very cute. got Edward Scissor Hands VHS. and two picture frames. :0). made me essided. ^.^!
RIGHT NOW: jon and shane and beefy are all in beefy's bed. heh. this is bad. i am like a cupple feet away. ack. shane is asking me questions. lol earlier he asked me "do you have a freckle on your left boob" lol amazingly i do. lol haha i told them no. A.) because they would ask to see it. and B.) they dont need to noe that. so bleh. you lose!!
Talking to Jay jay...feeling suddenly overwhelmed.
jesus. i didnt noe so much liquid could leave my body thru my tear ducts. ack. i need this person in ma life. i cant leave her.ahhhhhhhh i am going crazy without her. <333333
"When I cant hold you in ma arms, I hold you in ma heart"
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^I need you.
A song from <3333....
"i feel like this wont go away
no matter how hard i try to
squeeze my eyes shut so i cant see
the pain in you this pain in me
but everything that i can
say to you wont help you
everything you need is right
in front of you just take it
i know i am really not here
to represent what i am not clear
about in my head sometimes i feel
fucked up just like you do like you do
try to make it through the daily pain that you feel
maybe tomorrow wont be so bad
i know it cause i once felt
that way nothing i could say
made it go away i lived though this
i stll feel this i just live for my tomorrow
just make it go away she makes it go away"--Staind.
okay yeah before i get really mad. i am gunna wrap this up.
Beckett was just right behind me
heh. gah shane and jon are queer. we are talking about infedelity. lol. oh no. shane sed red and huge. omg. wut is going on here???? AHHHH PORNOGRAPHY!!!!!!!!!! AKKKKK!!!
waka waka. hoochie mamma! lolness. okay this is so weird i am partically in tears [again] and beefy is being groped haha. this is so backwards. okay yeah just coz imma slut doesnt mean nuddin. lol i'm not i would never do anything with someone i would not date.
shane and jon just left. :0) gawsh finally some peace.
"Walking the dark side of the moon was not the worst part"
"Wut was?"
"Doing it alone"
[from the movie "Love the hard way"]
:0(.okay before i pour my heart out i'm going to leave.
so yeah. my weekend was great until like right now.
-<3- My. Last. Goodbye.-<3-
`suicide notes and butterfly kisses.
I cant leave this world without you.
I love you. I love you.
This is me. Okay, this is me.
HEAD OVER FUCKING HEELS.
-<3-X0X0IWILLNEVERLEAVEYOUX0X0-<3-